Not where I wanted to be and I feel like a failure...need emotional support

I had RNY a little over 2 years ago but stopped losing weight after about a year. I know it was due to my own stupidity. I decided to try sugar and have been battling it ever since. I've always been an emotional eater and stress has been a real problem for me in the last year (starting nursing school, husband lost his job, had to declare bankruptcy, found out it's going to take a miracle to get pregnant because husb has some medical probs, mom has had some medical problems, had to pretty much stop working because nursing school is about all I can handle, have been totally flat broke for the last 6 months). I find myself doing everything I'm not supposed to. I graze, eat sweets, and don't exercise like I should. I even ran into some problems in the last year with alcohol. I've since stopped drinking because I was afraid I'd become an alcoholic (I really liked the feeling). I feel like such a failure and I know I only have myself to blame. Not only have I not lost any more weight, I've gained about 10 pounds in the last month. I'm pulling straight A's in school, I've lost 140 pounds, I've done some things I never thought I'd do (walked the Mackinac Bridge last year-5 miles!) and I know I should be thankful and proud of myself. But, I still weigh 260 pounds and if I'm not careful I'm going to get back up to 400 pounds! I know that WLS is only a tool and I know what I need to do but I'm having trouble getting rid of the guilt and shame and starting over again. Any suggestions? Thanks for any input.

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