Sabotage-I find myself not eating anything really during the ...

I may have a small snack like sf yogurt or sf popsicles or maybe some veggies and hummus, but that's it. I'm just not usually hungry, I drink fluids during the day and then find myself eating dinner anytime between 7pm-11pm(if it is a bad night) I have a hard time deciding what I want to eat because I get so sick of everything and then by the time I look at the clock it's close to 10 or 11pm. I also then find myself making meals such as last night 1 ostrich patty and 3 broccoli florets and eating it all of it little by little because I know now I need the calories and the protein, so I keep taking lil bites until that whole meal is gone, but then last night I felt so horrible and guilty because then an hour later I had 4 grape tomatoes and 1 boiled egg, just the egg white and three pieces of crumbled feta cheese(small pieces). Then later on I woke up and the middle of the night and have been doing so lately hungry and munched on 2 mini biscotti-I don't know what the hell is wrong with me I feel like a failure and I'm on the border of tears. I'm a lil over 6 months out since having surgery on March6 03 and have lost 90lbs and I am estatic about it, I love the compliments, the weight loss in itself,the energy, everything, I don;t know why I'm doing this but I don't want to sabotage everything I have worked so hard for and I don't want to gain the weight back now or ever for that matter. Is there anyone else out there going through the same thing and do you have any suggestions I'm feeling like a complete and utter failure? Has anyone started to get a lil cocky about the weight loss and find that they began to eat more like "skinny people eat" because they know they have the tool to back them up a little? I don;t if that could be my problem but whatever it is I just need help to stop and know that I'm not alone in this thing. Thank You Tori

We greatly appreciate your interest in helping us build our Q&A database. To discourage vandals from posting garbage, however, we require people to register before posting.

You must be logged in to post an answer. Click here to log in.