Tomorrow is my surgery date, November 14th. Why am I not excited?

This is what i've worked so hard to get to, I'm so surprised at my emotional numbness about tomorrow...has anyone else felt like this? (My 2 week fast was an emotional rollacoaster, now that its over and its surgery time, im just not feeling anything......wierd?)

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