HELP! I need Counseling Pre-Op for Emotional Issues

I am lost...I really need advice from someone who has been there. I am now just waiting for my surgery date (Gastric Bypass). I am not scared of the surg or anything like that, but I want my surgery date NOW (impatient)---I am just having so many emotions--anger, depression, embarassment, and agoraphoibia, self-loathing, and I am pee-d off that I am overweight. (I have had some anxiety problems in the past couple years from working too much, but I have always been pleasant and happy) Now I go to work, come home, rarely clean, and sleep all weekend long. I haven't seen relatives in ages, I make excuses to get out of social events, and I won't even go shopping unless its dark out and no one is around. I feel useless and worthless at my job that I studied went to college for 7 years for. I am angry that I am single and I don't have children. Thankfully, I don't really show my anger and I don't lash out at anyone else, but I suffer alone. What is wrong with me?? Will this stop? When? How? I should be so excited about this change in my life, but instead I am having all these emotions. Its like I am re-evaluating past experiences with family (divorce), friends, x-boyfriends (nothing major, just usual stuff)---and I am so angry about some things that never really bothered my before. I am even mad/ashamed that I have to have weight loss surgery---I had a big emotional breakdown (by myself) after my 1st bariatric support group meeting (I know this is NOT rational, the people in support group and the nurses are the nicest people in the world, and I don't think bad of them at all.) Overall, I could win the lottery and it wouldn't make me happy!!! I feel like even if I was at my goal weight (140) that I would still not be happy because of all of these emotional issues that are surfacing. I made any appointment to see a counselor because I feel like I am going crazy and I can't help myself, and I will see her on Aug. 18, 2005. How do I help the doctor to help me, and understand the WLS emotional issues?? I realize I need help, and I want to get better and be happy!

We greatly appreciate your interest in helping us build our Q&A database. To discourage vandals from posting garbage, however, we require people to register before posting.

You must be logged in to post an answer. Click here to log in.