Weight going, insecurity coming on strong...

I am 2 months post-op and down almost 60lbs and 3 pants sizes. The problem is that I am extremely paranoid about EVERYTHING I put into my mouth. I haven't done anything like eat sweets..things I SOOO loved pre-op, but I did have 2 glasses of wine for the first time last week and have since beat myself up senseless since. I can't stop thinking that I messed myself up that the weightloss is going to stop b/c of it. Has anyone felt this way about the same thing or about a food sidestep? There are days that I feel like I could eat a whole hamburger, but really never get in half (without any bread of course), but then I still feel like I am a pig. Still haven't eaten bread since the surgery and stay away from startches as much as possible, though my fiance made pasta last week, I had a quarter of a cup and I came unglued b/c of it. Haven't touched a coffee, soda, etc., and drink water like crazy...so tell me why is this psychological stuff is happening? Also, something else very important to note is my guilt over exercise. I joined a gym a few weeks ago and go a few times a week, and feel extremely guilty that this past week I was only able to get there once b/c it was a non stop running around, a busy week, I keep thinking that I am going to gain weight back..my fiance says I am nuts b/c I don't eat enough to possibly do so, in fact, he says he worries that I am not getting enough. I hated to exercise before the surgery, so I didn't, I viewed it as a chore and yucky, I still feel that way, but I know I have to do it..even if I get there 3 times a week it's better than being lethargic like I have been for years and years...but it's still a challenge, am I alone? How do I motivate myself to go and do my thing with gusto when I get there? ..last night after my daughters 10th birthday I ate some Wheat Thins and it has been beating me up in the brain since...my fiance' said, "Honey, you ran around serving people all day and all I saw you eat during that entire thing was a baby carrot. I think your being super hard on yourself." Come to think of it, those Wheat Thins were the only thing I actually ate all day during the rush of the party. Am I crazy? Why am I having these issues???? Please help.....

We greatly appreciate your interest in helping us build our Q&A database. To discourage vandals from posting garbage, however, we require people to register before posting.

You must be logged in to post an answer. Click here to log in.