Looking at my body makes me want to cry...

I am seven months post op and down about 124 pounds from a pre-op weight of 314. When dressed, I look fantastic. Hips and boobs and small waist in between. I actually attract a lot of men. But, undressed, my body looks so disgusting it's becoming a really serious issue for me. EVERYTHING - my upper abdomen, panni, arms, thighs, saddle bags is baggy, saggy, dimpled, just gross...and my breasts - I am 27 years old and have D cups that hang almost to my belly button and point straight to the floor. The skin under my armpits is so loose that it doesn't even pop back into place if I pull at it. It's becoming difficult for me to build a relationship becasue I know I can't be initmate with someone how I look. It's easy to say, "Well, if you find a man who really likes you he won't care". But that's pretty unrealistic. And even so, *I* can't seem to seem to get past it. I'm too scared to try becasue I am so wretched looking. I just ended it with a man I've been dating, because it was time to move on to that next step and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Yesterday I took a long hard look in the mirror and I am a naked freak. Even at 300 pounds I was always very confident in bed or even in a bathing suit...I didn't care about what my body looked like. My body image issues are now turning into an even more prominent intimacy issue. I have a consult with a PS tomorrow, but I am still about 30-35 pounds from goal and don't plan on actually having any PS until after the New Year. And that's a long time to be so lonely. I guess I don't really have a question. I am just so sad today about this and need someone to lean on. Anyone have anything that might cheer me up?

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