Is it normal for doubts to pop up several weeks pre-op?

I'm preop, all approved, both medically and insurance-wise. I have done so much research, chose a doctor and hospital I totally trust and a procedure that I feel best fits my personal needs and lifestyle. I've never waivered from my determination that this is the best thing that I could possibly do for myself. Up until the past few days, that is. Since getting my insurance approval, I've started to freak out. I worry that I'm going to regret my decision, wonder if I'll be prepared in time with things I will need at home, wonder if I can handle the pain, wonder if I will HATE the surgery I've felt so sure of, wonder if I'll die on the table or shortly afterwords. These doubts come and go throughout the days. For the most part, I'm lucid enough to feel as confident as ever, but then these thoughts sneak back in. Does this mean my I'm getting signs to back out? I don't want to!! Even in my darkest moments, I don't consider backing out. Why am I torturing myself like this?? Thanks for letting me vent, any thoughts will be greatly appreciated.

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