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Thanks, my daughter is a blessing, in fact all three of my kids have been pillars of support for me during this journey.

I sort of 'suspended' my relationship with my current boyfriend today.  He would often tell me things about the women from his failed relationships, with a sort of longing in his voice for these women who treated him badly.  The ironic thing is that he also complained that women seem to want to be treated badly, but won't commit to a relationship with a good man.  The reason this is ironic?  Because that's how I see what he's doing.  He doesn't recognize that he's with a good woman now: me!  I feel like I have a peculiar genius for finding emotionally unavailable men. 

Basically, I told him that when he figured out what he was losing, he should call.  Til then, I just couldn't bear it.  I told him that I've come too far to feel badly, like I don't measure up somehow to these women in his past.  Tell me - I have a Master's Degree, a career path that matches, I own my own home, I own my car, pickup, motorcycle, and camper outright, I have little unsecured debt, a good sense of style, I'm mature, emotionally stable, affectionate, and generous.  Even though I'm a professional, my mother raised me to be a farm wife, so I can clean, decorate, garden, sew, can, pickle, jam, jelly, cook, and bake with the best of them.  I have raised my children, who are both degreed and successful in their careers/lives.  Our relationships are strong and mature.  I am moral and care about my community.  What gives?  What does a man want?

Forgive me.  I am worn down today.  And I need a boost.  Thanks.