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This was a hard email for me to read....and I really felt the weight of that "trophy".   I have been carrying this "trophy" with me every minute since I got this message and at first it was a very uncomfortable experience. I started trying to get rid of it right away.  As a matter of fact, I have given it away so many times but discovered that it is still with me...and it is not becuase I am still thinking of myself as the fattest person anymore but rather because I have finally realized how many others are in the same boat or in worse shape...so I dont want pass it on to someone else because I dont want to forget how I felt and never let myself go there again....yea I know I probably will but maybe I can avoid it for a while


THANK YOU!!!!!

So, I packed up a big girl's dream wardrobe in my sexy red roll-a-board bag and took off on Wed morning in a jet plane.  I felt glamorous and confident because I had given myself permission to be me with out any reservations about my size. I allowed myself to notice that I was not the biggest person every place I went and feel sympathy for those who were not blessed with the level of mobility that I have.  I did not take as many pictures as I intended, not because I avoided the camera but rather because taking pictures was just not my priority.  I am not real thrilled with the way I look in the ones I did take but...oh well....that will change.  I had a wonderful time in my sparkly dress and even felt great in jeans.  I ate what I wanted but discover food was not my focus, even at the buffets.  I even faced one of my biggest fears...I sang in public!!!  I have no regrets about my last fat trip!!!!!

 With all my best intentions of journaling the whole experience I am sad to say I ran off and left my journal at home....so memories are all that are left.  But I came home feeling better about myself, my ability to succeed regardless of which procedure I use to get to goal, and much closer to my husband...so now I am less than two weeks from my last nut visit and then ready for surgery. 

and then there is that interview on Monday...I think I am ready for that too...

Thank you to all of you that encouraged me to make this trip a Bonn Voyage!!!...it was an incredibly freeing experience and I am 100% ready to let "it" all go and move on now....still scared about the surgery part but I 'll get past that.

hmmm...maybe you got taller...less weight might equal less spinal compression????

Yvonne you were right......the drain coming out did not hurt. I heard from my hubby and WLS friends and even remembered when the drains were removed from my breast reduction surgery hurting. No pain on Thursday but a very WEIRD sensation. It did make me nauseous.

I did have to travel an hour this am to go to the ER where my surgeon is, for an infection in one of my incisions. Friday I was in so much pain with drainage from this site. Of course this is at night when the offices are closed and the start of a weekend. We called the answering service and made arrangements for this morning. He had to reopen clean it out and fill me with some packing material.
I had to laugh because the surgeon said because this is one of the surgery sites I should be pretty numb but he will numb me up some anyway. Well I have to say he is wrong I felt almost everything. OUCH.  I made quite a few faces and tried not to flinch and kept praying so I wouldn't cry out. I did not want to startle the man with scissors all  the way  up to the handle inside of me. He knew I was in pain but you have to do what you have to do. Now the pain is gone and I have been sleeping most of the afternoon. I'm trying to stay awake now so I will be able to sleep tonight. Its hard sleeping through the nights.
This is just a little bump in the road no detours...Thank the Lord

Hope everyone is doing great on their Journeys. Keep up the great work... we will make it!!!!
Tressa

So incredibly talented!  That takes a lot of time and energy!  Thanks for the link, I LOVED it.  Please feel free to share any of those.  We should have a you tube sticky thread for fun!

Ladies just so you know, you can find some incredible eye makeup lessons on you tube.  Well really you can find how to on about anything there.

Thanks Suzy!