Molly is back on track!!

In March 2010 when I set out to get back on track, I knew it would be hard.  I knew I had to take some drastic measures to get my mind in the place I needed to be to lose 170 more pounds - 80 of which I had regained.  In my 20's, 30's and with weight loss surgery the pounds came off a lot more easier than they did this time around.  But I was determined to use all of my knowledge to just stick out the bumps in the road I have had over the last 6 months.  

In June I had a relapse.  I gained over 12 pounds and then spent the whole month of July and part of August getting that weight off.  August I did everything right 90 percent of the time and only lost 3 pounds.  But at least I had not gained, but still disconcerting because I knew with what I was eating and the exercising I was doing almost daily that I should have been losing at least 2 pounds a week.  

Now it is September 13th and I have lost 8 pounds already for a total of 30 pounds,  My BMI is back in the 40's.  My body finally realized I was not going to let it win.  I was going to stick it out.  When I started out my goal was 8 pounds a month.  That would mean now I should have lost 42 to 48 pounds.  So I am a little behind.  Wouldn't it be something if I caught up some how in the next 4 to 6 weeks.  I am not sweating it.   But I still think about it.  I am not complaining or upset I have lost only 30 pounds.  I am just reflecting. 

I am very happy with the 30!  I am happy because I have stop the bleeding (gaining).  I am so on my mission now to reach all my goals.  Maybe I will not reach them on the timetable I set but as long as I do not give up I am on my way.  I still have a long ways to go and plenty of soul searching to do but I am on my way.  I am making a come back.  You can get back on track!  I am back on track and I feel good about it.  I am going all the way.

My many friends and support programs has helped me remain positive and mindful of my ultimate goals. Encouraging others has help me stay on track also.  Thanks again for your support! 

Sooooooooooo proud of you Molly.  I want to know if I can use it on my blog.  I can leave your name off if you'd like.  I want to encourage those that think it can't be done.  Let me know if I can use your words and if you're feeling brave, let me know if I can use your first name.
Hugs and hugs and hugs, Y

Thanks so much Yvonne.  Sure you can use this on your blog to help others and yes you can use my name. 

Molly

WOOOO HOOOOO !!!!  Molly

MOLL - LEE!!!  (that is fo convey the SOUND of CHEERLEADERS.... the Roar of the crowd... etc etc)

  Thanks JEllen!!

Molly

Thanx for your story. I'm trying to get back on track myself. I was 441 preop. I was 195 last week, but I'm like 208 now. YIKES!!! I'm trying my best to fight the beast, but I keep fing up.

You can get back on track.  Just never give up and will get back to 195.  Keep us posted!

Thanks. I'm not giving up. Today's a new day. Sometimes that binge monster is hard to put back to sleep, but I'm going tpo do it.

Yvonne is so right Yehuda.....:-)   It is better only 10 to 20 pounds vs. more like 80.  It is harder.  Metabolism, older now, etc, etc.  I remember when I could lose 30 pounds in 2 months tops, maybe 3 if I put my mind to it.  It took me almost 7 months of ups and downs.  Now I think I have did the hardest part.  (maybe not)  But either way I am in it until I am down to 218 or lower.

3 years ago it all started when my support group meeting changed nights and I felt I was OK, since I was doing so well.  One year it was about 15 pounds and next year it was another 15 pounds.  Then 2009 it was 50 big ones.  For 3 years I was not going to any support group meetings, etc.  Now I go to face to face support group meeting once a month.  I do telephone support group meeting once or twice a month.  Plus I am part of several forums and groups here on OH.com.  Coming here I found out about MyFitnessPal.com and I track my food and exercise there and get more support.   Support is SO crucial.  We can not read minds and it helps to vent when frustrated.  You get advice and just knowing you are not alone helps too.  Once you get the necessary support you have to want it bad enough to make things happen and you definitely need Patience with yourself because we are not perfect.  You need to persevere because it is easy to throw your hands up and give up, and lastly you have to have a positive attitude and really believe in yourself and believe that you can turn this around. Do whatever it takes. 

You can do it!!  Lurking is not as helpful and therapeutic as posting.  I post almost every day when I am not too busy.  But definitely a week has not passed without me posting a reply or posting an inspiration.  I blog monthly also and usually whatever I blog I post to my groups and forums.  Please let us help you.  That is what this is all about.

This may sound obsessive but I've seen it hundreds of times.  RIGHT NOW is the most important time to get it together.  Molly can tell you herself that she wishes she could have kept that monster at bay long before 80 pounds.  It is HARDER to get off after surgery so you have to be really REALLY hard on yourself if necessary to stay where you are.  Again I'm sorry if this sounds tough but this is a crucial time for you and you've got to keep it under control.  We are happy to help you with this and that's what we are here for too!  If I could have talked to Molly before she regained I think I could have helped her but the important thing is that she's decided to kick that monster's butt.  I know she can do it too.  Her talking about even gaining back that one month and she still didn't let her get it down.  She's serious about this thing! 

If we can help...anything...ask questions, talk about what triggers you wanting to eat..being careful about cross addictions..we can cover it all here and can help you together as a group.  The second important part is DON'T DISAPPEAR FROM SUPPORT!  That's the other deadly thing.  When you go away from a group and stop being accountable the monster will start stalking you.  You've got a great group of support here...
hugs, Y