122lbs gone and still working

Well I am still losing getting to the point where people are telling me you don't need to lose anymore but I still have a goal in mind. I am tall so I can still carry more weight and people think I weigh less but my goal is healthy weight not please others weight.

I have joined a fitness boot camp military style and it is going great my body never has a chance to get use to the work out because it changes all the time. I have pushed myself in ways I never would have working out alone so I am thankful for the class.

my eating is still fine just still working on eating enough sometimes it's hard when your not hungry. I just don't want to go from one extreme to another over eater then under eater. gotta find a balance.

I am also still dealing with the fat girl syndrome I still see myself as a big girl even though people laugh when I say that. I have to focus on being happy with myself and satisfied with my body but when you have been big most of your life your so use to being invisible. You get comfortable in fat girl mode everyone ignores you because they don't want to acknowledge your size. Now people see me differently but I still see fat girl lol I am working on it. I was out on a date and the guy made a comment about two large women who walk into the restaurant of course about there size. I was upset and felt a little insecure because I was not to shortly ago one of them.

Funny how losing weight changes your whole world view and how the world sees you. Even with all that I am still very happy and positive about my future just have some things to work out.

Congratulations!  That is awesome.  It is great that you joined a fitness boot camp.  Those can be intense workouts, that do push you.  Keep that up!

I know we all still deal with the "Fat Girl" syndrome; especially when we have dealt with that most of our lives.  What I do, it make a gratitude list everyday and Thank God that he helped me to be the woman that I am today and for all the little things I can wear and do today - example:  Spin Class (just like your bootcamp).

What I know about other people comments today, is that those are their comments, they own them.  What I can do for the person still out there, is try and be an example that WLS works and be an inspiration.  I know I can't save the world, even though I would like everyone to experience what I have been given; but if I can touch one life with my journey, that I have helped someone.  Don't be discouraged by others comments, it is hard for those to understand that have not been where we have been.

Keep up the good work and even your own nephew want know who you are and think your some "young chick" they can hit on.  It is pretty funny when they found it is there Aunt.

Thanks looks like you have done an excellent job yourself

I am so proud of you.  You will always get that from people...telling you that you've lost enough because it is shocking to them.  I still have to tell my dad that I wear a medium top.  Eventually people will adjust and leave you alone!  You can just tell them "thanks for the suggestion" and not discuss it further.

It's going to take you a bit longer for your head to catch up with your body.  Don't ru**** before long you will settle into your new body.  I had 30 years of programming to change.  I was the jolly, joke telling, fat girl.  I wasn't really even female acting...sort of one of the guys.  I made a lot of fat jokes about myself.

I can't imagine how that felt for that guy to make fun of someone obese.  I think that's part of the reason I am so open about my surgery.  It keeps me out of that situation.  I know that some people don't know any better and they are quick to have opinions about things they do not know about.  Until you have walked in someone's shoes you don't really understand.

I'm so glad you stopped by and reported in.  Like I said...take your time.  Enjoy the life you've strived for and learn new life lessons.  We are like little kids starting over socially.  In so many ways I'm only 9 1/2 years old but it gets better every year.  Congrats in your progress and here's hoping you'll continue to thrive and have the life you've always wanted.
hugs, Y 

Your so right about my soical age have to catch with my body. what an adventure!!!

"Now people see me differently but I still see fat girl lol I am working on it. I was out on a date and the guy made a comment about two large women who walk into the restaurant of course about there size. I was upset and felt a little insecure because I was not to shortly ago one of them."


Oh boy .. Isn't THAT the truth???

My experience in Home DePot left me with similar feelings... anger at the worker.. for being "so" helpful. I won't go into that now... I've shared enough about that disturbing --( to me) treatment. 

I think I may have gotten angry at the date. HA HA how about this....
right as he leans over to smooch... 
lean back away and say.... "I don't know if you want to kiss me... 
and  whip out my FATTY PICTURES... You may turn into a TOAD...

Oh wait... YOU ARE A TOAD... and no kiss from THIS PRINCESS is going to fix YOU!

ADIOS TOAD!




ok now see... I got all perturbed over that for you!

LOL that is funny

Oh JEllen!!!  You crack me up!

Disclaimer:
I do NOT recommend this type of sarcastic attitude!

BUT... sometimes.....I just can't help myself....

Congratulations!!!!   Wonderful!   

One of my high school friends told me that I was getting too skinny at 310.  I was so hurt and offended by this statement.  She of all people know my struggle with weight my entire life and at 310 and my height people think I was about 250 plus I am a pear shape.  But getting too skinny!!?  I was just making her feel uncomfortable because now she looked bigger than me even though she was not.  I am so sorry our relationship changed.  Other friends start saying you have lost enough weight now.  What?!!

So I think that is what started me back to gaining because I started listening to this nonsense.  Well now I know better and will not make that same mistake twice.This time I am not going to fret over it or listen to any negative talk like I am getting too skinny or I don't need to lose any more weight. 

So do not listen to them!  Block it out! 

And it took me a long time to realize I still was not super morbidly obese.  I was in deep denial.  My sister really helped me with this.  because I kept going to the Catherine's and my sister showed me I could go to any store now and find my clothes.  And when I did I gradually started believing I did not need the big girl stores any more.  I was still ordering from specialty shops on-line and when I ordered the stuff it was too big and I would have to send the stuff back.  Even though I gained weight I can still go to regular stores.  But my goal is not to have to buy clothes over size 16 in any store. 

Keep up the good work and the fat girl will be gone in mind and body!