Panic or Not to Panic

So I think is official I have gained about 2 lbs.  I know it doesn't seem like much but here's my problem; the past four months I dropped from about 142 to about 127, I had gotten down to 142 from about 155 since last summer. The people I trust were telling me I was looking to thin, and I need to put on a few lbs. these being my doctors, my folks, and even dh.  On the size frame I am, I really was looking to thin, kinda stick figurish.  So logically I know I should put a few lbs back on, but the thought of me actually working to PUT ON weight just doesn't feel right and as I've started I feel a bit of a panic. What if it doesn't stop??  

Maybe a year ago I saw a documentary titled 'I Eat 30,000 Calories a Day' (or something close to that).  In it said that this woman even if she lost all of the weight her fat cells would always remember and it would be easier for her to regain, I think maybe this had a stronger effect on me than I realized.  I am terribly fearful of  my fat cells remember being 300 lbs and trying to get back there. 

 

Knowledge is power.

you recognize that there very well may be underlying issues regarding your fears about weight regain. Of course, not a one of us wants to regain ALL the weight we lost. Finding a good new weight may be more difficult for some... first too thin then gaining back too much or not making it to goal and starting to regain.

the thing is we need to still fight the fat-
we can still conquer we have the tool.
2 lbs the war is not lost. but try to find your happy place on the scale and stick within a 10lb range... 5 up or down.

If I were to  allow myself to start going beyond that upper range I may be heading for trouble again.

so.... don't panic.... just get back to basics.

Not to panic.  That's the choice.  You have done so incredibly well.  We all understand the fear.  It was horrible being morbidly obese.  Horrible.  Who wouldn't fear it? 

But you're at a wonderful place today.  Instead of being confined by a body that won't cooperate, you now have a tool that will allow you to make choices that can result in a good healthy weight.    You have a whole new lifestyle that will produce the results you want.  And you have a good community of folks to support you if you need accountability. 

I think a little fear is good, in this situation.  It will keep you cautious.  It will force you to be mindful. 

Honestly, I think your body is just finding a new slim that it likes, instead of that old 300 it wore around for too long.  I think your heart and lungs have more pull in the voting booth than those slack old fat cells.  You'll be fine, and we'll be here to help you gird your loins when you need courage in the face of fear.

Many big hugs,

Kathy

Remember you have changed your body composition.  And if you need to gain a bit - be sure to try to gain muscle weight if possible to keep you healthier...

I am so grateful for our other members here.  Ever since returning from California I have gotten so many emails for help and I feel so badly for not being here as much.  I think you got such great answers.  I always tell everyone not to freak when you are at your lowest weight because it will come back without even trying very hard.  It also gives your body some time to adjust and also it gives friends and family time to adjust.  I have literally had friends tell me they were glad that I put some weight on because I had gotten so thin.   I didn't tell them that I really hadn't...they just got used to it and they didn't know.  The operative word is panic.  Don't need to panic about anything you know?  Take it slow and easy.  It will work out sweetie.
Love ya girl, Y

My Dear Friends thank you for your input. I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to respond. 

I promised myself that I would not focus on the numbers on the scale but go by how I felt, and I have stopped sticking to that, I found myself working to get to certain numbers, then once I get there, I worked towards smaller numbers. As it is now I don't have much of a figure, something I always had. Even at 250 I still had sort of an hourglass going on. (over that I just looked blobie ) I think once I get the plastics done I will feel a little more confident.  I really don't want a lot done, Boobs for sure!!! And a little tightening here and there.  I can't say I am really "ok" with gaining weight but I think as I start to look better it will get easier.

Thank you again my dear friends