Back on Track

Okay... It is Monday... and I have my stuff together.  WooHoo!!! Last week was a doozie.

This is my plan to help with my weight gain:

1.  I have been buying my food each day when I get hungry.  Starting this week... I am going to BRING my lunch and PLAN my dinner.  Eating junk is NO LONGER an option for me.  If I buy my food in advance, I will be able to buy healthier food.  When I wait until I am hungry... I will get junk.

2.  I am cleaning this week... so I will be getting my excersice that way.  I am making a workout PLAN/BACK UP PLAN and sticking to it.  Today and tomorrow, I will be doing some deep home cleaning... Starting Wed, I am back to the gym.  Exercise will help me both physically and mentally.

NO MORE EXCUSES...  Failure is no longer an option.  I will also start posting my SUCCESS on the accountability post on TMB.

Thanks everyone for your support.  Last week was a bad week, but this one is going to be better.

 

-Kim T

 

You can do it!!   Have a good week! 

I had a less than great week too.  I have been letting too many "fun" foods in.  Today I was going to turn over a new leaf.  Did great for so long - at lunch, did not have the bread with the sandwhich that was served at our meeting - just the meat and cheese.  Did not have the thick greasy (tasty) chips they make in the cafeteria, passed the cookie plate on without taking one, and when they brought a special treat - a box of DOVE icecream bars - I didn't take one.  I was so glad too when I read on the box that each bar was 330 calories!!  At dinner - another meeting - I brought my own food which was some steak.  The steak was wonderful.  I really wanted the dessert treats but again did not eat one.  However, I then auditioned for a community theater production and when 5 of us went out afterward - I agreed to share a pizza.  I had one thick piece but really didn't want to give in to pizza this week.  Sigh.   I need to decide that helping the group finance a pizza isn't a job I can take on!  I think  "I should help" but then I sabotage my own goals.  ENOUGH.  STOP IT ME!
I can't believe the number of times in one day we sometimes have to fight temptations.
Just want you to know Kim - your getting on this site and reminding me that failure is not an option is much appreciated.

Anne

Good for you staying away from all of the temptations.  I know how hard that is.  We are all going to slip sometimes.  Try not to focus on the one slep.  Focus on all the things that you mentioned staying away from.  They far out number the one mistake. 

I know how hard it is to say no to helping others, but you need to take care of you first.  You are right.  Failure is NOT an option.  Keep up the good work.

-Kim T

Anne, you made me laugh.  "STOP IT ME!"  There's a great saying about people with addictive and co-dependent issues.  "I'll show you, I'll get me!"  We do this so often without realizing it.  We sabotage ourselves because we don't somehow feel like we deserve to have what we've accomplished.  I'm so glad you didn't do the Dove ice cream bars.  It is truly like drugs.  We want that momentary high from this crap that only makes us feel ten times worse later.  Why do we do it to ourselves?  I do whatever it is to not fail because it is NOT an option.  I can let the rest of my life crumble but this is the one area I cannot mess up under any cir****tances.  Just because I'm 9 years out does not mean I've beaten the monster of obesity.  I cannot ever really relax because I will always have "obesity" but it doesn't have to have me.  I'm pretty sure I will continue on the successful road but I will never get over confident and think I've got it made. Staying here and helping others is what helps me do that.
hugs, Y

Failure is not an option and there are many that think that it is obsessive thinking but they don't get 2 to 3 emails every week from someone that regained their weight.  I cannot tell you how miserable these people are and how much I wish I could snap my fingers and make the regain go away.  It is exactly why I just keep harping on staying at goal when you get there above all else.  I have to repeat the saying again that 100% is easy and 99% is a *****  When I decide that I will not have cake/pie/whatever sugar thing 100% of the time it is an easy easy decision.  When I let myself "oh I'll have a little" I will fail.  Again it is the way I have to do it but I will stress again that I am not deprived.  Again if I regain I will be feeling deprived of the body size I had.  Many of those that write me are so miserable and hopeless.  I just want to cry.  It is so much easier to fix the problems when they are small and that's a fact.  When we have stressors or triggers in our life we have to find them and eliminate them.   I have almost crashed and burned many times because I am so co-dependent but if I let myself do that I cannot help myself nor help someone that wants my help.  I wish I could post each of those emails that I get but of course I cannot.  There are many searches that end up on my blog that say "WLS and suicide".  This is not something to be taken lightly.

Kim if you find yourself eating things you shouldn't then plan your food and know that it is what you get and nothing else.  You are right....if you wait too long and get too hungry you will eat junk.  Did you ever read about HALT?  That stands for:
H-hungry
A-anxious
L- lonely
T - tired
These are times when we are most likely to reoffend.  And when we do it is important that we dust ourselves off and start again.  Every single day we should wake up and be as innocent and garbage free as a newborn baby.  We don't do that though...we carry the baggage from yesterday and the day before.  We cannot change the past, we can only change right now.  We also cannot look to the future as being "when I get happy".  We have to be happy right now. 

I am on my soapbox because many things happened last week and again I got email from 3 women in distress.  I always invite them to join us here and hope they will.  WLS is no easy way out....it gets harder as time goes unless you plan ahead and insistng that failure is not an option.  Fail to plan and you will plan to fail.
hugs, Y

Thank you.  I needed that.  Pep talk AND the hugs.

-Kim T

WOW, thought provoking.  I'm glad you have stayed active in sharing.
Anne