X post ---- Leaving Vegas

So, I packed up a big girl's dream wardrobe in my sexy red roll-a-board bag and took off on Wed morning in a jet plane.  I felt glamorous and confident because I had given myself permission to be me with out any reservations about my size. I allowed myself to notice that I was not the biggest person every place I went and feel sympathy for those who were not blessed with the level of mobility that I have.  I did not take as many pictures as I intended, not because I avoided the camera but rather because taking pictures was just not my priority.  I am not real thrilled with the way I look in the ones I did take but...oh well....that will change.  I had a wonderful time in my sparkly dress and even felt great in jeans.  I ate what I wanted but discover food was not my focus, even at the buffets.  I even faced one of my biggest fears...I sang in public!!!  I have no regrets about my last fat trip!!!!!

 With all my best intentions of journaling the whole experience I am sad to say I ran off and left my journal at home....so memories are all that are left.  But I came home feeling better about myself, my ability to succeed regardless of which procedure I use to get to goal, and much closer to my husband...so now I am less than two weeks from my last nut visit and then ready for surgery. 

and then there is that interview on Monday...I think I am ready for that too...

Thank you to all of you that encouraged me to make this trip a Bonn Voyage!!!...it was an incredibly freeing experience and I am 100% ready to let "it" all go and move on now....still scared about the surgery part but I 'll get past that.

WOO HOO!

it's the DAWN of a NEW DAY for DAWN!!!

so glad you had a nice time and were able to focus on all the positive things- that is an amazing accomplishment! (especially- for those of us who haven't done that in a long time!!!)

your apprehension regarding surgery is a good sign that you are aware that there ARE risks. Just remember... there are also RISKS in doing NOTHING about our HIGH weight along with all the co-morbidities.
Also- shortly after surgery you may feel ... "what in the world have I done to myself???"  this is also a common feeling. 

Thankfully, that passes as you start to see the scale move IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION and you begin to FEEL SO MUCH BETTER!

hang in there.... YOU CAN DO IT!

yeah..what JEllen said! lol..congrats on making such a wonderful trip for yourself. I would love to see a pic of you in that sparkly dress :) I am a huge fan of all things blingy. It sounds like you have your brain in the right place to be getting ready for surgery and that is one of the hardest things to do..so way to go girl! Surgery doesn't change your brain..best advice I ever got..but it does change your waistline :)  Thank you for sharing your positive expirence and goodluck with your interview on Monday..Hugs

Congratulations on your upcoming surgery!!!!!  Keep me informed when you get your date. 

Gay

I'm sooo glad you made the trip. I can't count how many happy experiences I  cheated myself out of because I ws concerned with how others saw me. I would always scan the room to see how many skinny minnies are around and never just let go and have fun. That will change no matter what size I am because I am tired of cheating not only myself but my family out of the fun times we could have. Life is too short to keep thinking only if or when I get to such and such size I will.....
The time is now. I have to worry less what others say or do and enjoy the now.

Thanks for the lesson Dawn

You have been on my mind!! Welcome home!

Thank you for taking the time to share your experience with us. I am SOOO very happy that you did this trip YOUR way and that you got a chance to see yourself and where you are today in a new light-a more compassionate light. I do think that it is the compassion you give to yourself that you give to others as well!!

YAY on you! I will be awaiting the interview news!!

Hugs!
T

and the story continues....

we'll be here to cyber hold you hand when the time comes.
hugs Y