Friday, January 12, 2018

Weight 117.2, calories 1534. I slept fairly good last night. The overage on the calories came from Breyer Delight Vanilla ice cream (the whole pint). I probably shouldn't buy it...

I have been thinking the last couple of days about the article Shel linked to on self-compassion vs. self-confidence (in our January 10 discussion). I have always felt pretty self-confident, perhaps because it made me feel that I had control. As a woman in a male-dominated business it did help me get the respect I felt I needed and deserved. But perhaps as the article (and Devon) have suggested, it would suit me better now to develop more self-compassion. Really food for thought. As the article said, "We just need to learn to make friends with our inner critic".

I obtained tickets for several events here in our park coming up: a show with a comic, one with a singer and 2 dances. Tonight is "movie" night. All events start early and end relatively early to accommodate the geriatric crowd (I don't want to be them yet), so they should work for DH. I've been meeting a lot of people, but it is interesting that DH's issues are apparently obvious to everyone because most seem to know him and describe him as the man with dementia. Sigh...

Have a fantastic Friday!

I have some very sad news.

Yesterday morning, my beloved husband and boon companion died.

He fought so hard for so long and was so strong. But he couldn't win against the final ravages of cancer. He passed away at our local hospital after we called 911, realizing I could not get him there by myself.

The details of what happened to tip the scales against him matter so much less than the wonderful facts that he was the best man I have ever known, that I was the luckiest girl in the world to have him fall in love with me and care for me in every way he knew how to do for nearly 22 years, and that I had the joy of loving with all my heart the man he was. His love will always be with me. Quite simply, we were soulmates, the loves of our lives.

I am bereft, but grateful that my sister will be staying with me through the weekend. I will need some time -- probably a lot of time -- to adjust to living without my best friend. I know that, eventually, I will be OK again. But for now I must get through each minute and hour and feel everything that's happening.

Thank you for your love and support. I'll be in touch when I can.

Today's Theme: One breath at a time

Ann-I am so so sorry for your loss. Words are not enough. I am glad you will have the support of your sister. Please take care of yourself and time to grieve.

So sorry Ann, it makes the loss even greater when it is a soulmate. My thoughts are with you.

Ann, I can't even begin to imagine the depths of your loss. May you be comforted by all of your loving family and friends. We are here for you, now and later. My sympathies, friend.

Oh Ann, I'm just so sorry for your loss. Thankfully he had some good time of late with you. And both of you were so lucky to have been with your soulmates and best friends for all those years. Neither thought will help you feel less lonely, but hopefully will comfort you over time. All my love Ann

Oh Ann, I am so very sorry. He sounds like a wonderful man.

Oh dearest Ann I am so sorry. This seems so sudden and shocking. My heart goes out to you in every possible way. You have much ahead of you and we are all with you every step. Love. Diane S

Ann, I am so very sorry! Your grace to focus on the 22 glorious years you had with one another proves once again to me the depth and purity of your character. There will be dark moments ahead, but I am certain with your wonderful outlook and gift of finding the positive - even today - you will be fine.

Crying for/with you right now Ann. I am so very sorry. How blessed to have had the kind of love you two shared - hold on to that right now.