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Gratitude: It's the little things in a big appetite that count.posted 5/18/11 3:09 pm
I realize that I am really grateful for the ability of making one choice at a time, which in turn shifts my life towards a healthier me.
Lately I have realized that my motivation is low, that every action feels heavy and unwanted (showering, going to work, making appointments, even meeting friends). All I want to do is have free days where I can eat, sleep, and sleep some more, THAT'S all my drive wants to do at least. I guess it is depression, but I go to acupuncture several times a week, and it doesn't do much to change that. I am also on some medication for depression (tho I have long given up on it being my "savior"). And I can't really remember a time when it didn't take effort...so maybe i need to get used to it? So, today, I am proud of each little choice I made to move my "healthy decision" muscles over my "just do it" instinctual normal ways. Choices I saw myself doing today that went "against the tide" of lazy "whatever goesness" were: 1. I got out of bed early today, showered, and did my hair (albeit it was for a guy, but nevertheless, I am proud) 2. I chose to drink water instead of an expensive, corn syrupy tea drink I "wanted". 3. I chose to eat samples at the supermarket, and buy just a banana, knowing that I had food at home I didn't need to spend money for 4. I walked 3 miles tonight, even though I "wanted" to go home and watch movies 5. As a result of the walk, I am actually tired, and am going to sleep now at 12:15, 45 minutes earlier than last night, a current record :) So, thank God for little choices. Amy Grant sang "it takes a little time sometimes, to get your feet back on the ground, it takes a little time sometimes to get the Titanic turned back around, it takes a little time sometimes, but baby you're not going down, it takes more than you've got right now, but give it time." Thank you Jesus. Amen. :) Gratitude today: I am grateful for the concept that inspired me today, the one that said: I can take life one choice at a time, and choose the "slightly better" choice (mostly) each time, and as a result, the "Titanic" of my life place will be turned around, and someday it will be noticeable, and it's every little choice that made the difference. I am grateful for life one choice at a time. 0 Responses to "Gratitude: It's the little things in a big appetite that count."Be the first to comment!Sign in to comment! Login Now. << Blog Home |
