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Breaking the "Circle of Life"posted 5/17/11 3:01 pm
I am trying to reimagine life as something more linear verses cyclical. I ate a bit too much sugar tonight, and really feel the dead weight of my flabby thighs seemingly groaning after I overate.
What I did do today was go to work, get my eyebrows/face waxed, mow my lawn, clean the kitty box, do the dishes (moldy at this point), and watch a show with my folks, and come here. So, I am proud of my accomplishments today, it's just that I realize every step of the way took me personally coaching myself to put one foot in front of the other. Often I judge myself as having made no progress, or gone in a circle, when I realize it STILL takes me effort to do ANYTHING on a daily basis. But then I try to pull the zoom lens away from the negative I might be "focusing" on too much at the moment, and imagine all these seemingly "circular" steps (on forward, two back, two forward, on back, etc.) moving me into a more becoming me. A freer, truer, happier, stronger, healed me. And then I even see my times where I am not as "self controlled" as just a smaller lapse in the inevitable relapse motion of recovery, that like a sail boat, is really going forward but has to tack side to side to get there. Peace. Today's Gratitude: I am grateful today for the way a restructured sentence (a thought that is reframed from negative to positive) can give me the strength I need to move my muscles. I am glad that tool is in my grasp, and glad to be here with all of you. 0 Responses to "Breaking the "Circle of Life""Be the first to comment!Sign in to comment! Login Now. << Blog Home |
