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I wanna cry, scream throw a fit, act like a damn baby! AHHHHHHHHH!
 I am so tired of this pain. I keep getting told it isnt the PCOS thats causing me this pain, but my insides are always full of fluid from those stupid cysts that are popping!
 My friends, family and even boyfriend look at me like I'm crazy! They can't see it so I must be faking it right?!  A few of the docs think I'm drug seeking!  GOD! Alls I want is some relief..
 I feel so alone in this. I have double up on meds all day trying to get rid of the pain, and of course it doesn't help but sure has given me some serious gut rot!
 I'm going in soon to have the ovaries removed (April26th), and honestly I dont think its soon enough. I can't even move tonight it hurts so bad! But I had to finish cleaning the house for tomorrow, finish my homework (not done of course) and then I had to get some goodies cooked, including my own b~day cake! Nice right? Ya..
  What a crappy weekend Im having it is easter and my b~day tomorrow and I will spend it in pain!
 What do you guys do? How do you get through the pain? How about the emotions, and the people around you, how do you get them to understand that you are for real! And it really hurts...
 Phew.. It feels better to get that out..I really do hope having this surgery is going to be what helps......

The peeps in my support group insist that it's like children growing... they might get chunky for a while, and then they shoot up.  They can't get chunky and shoot up at the same time.. so they are saying we can't lose lose lose and expect our body to respond instantly... it has to "catch up".

Also has anyone been super conscious of their mental patterns?   You have to plan for these moments of weakness or low points in your resolve or whatever you want to call them....  I haven't had my surgey yet but I'm working on strategies of what I will do when those thoughts or desire****  I sure hope it helps.  Telling yourself you are going to be fat again is self destructive.  You need to give yourself a break and tell yourself that you will NEVER be fat again because you are going to make the right choices and take the right actions.

Well just my .02 from someone who hasn't been there yet!!!  :)

Good morning!

Sorry I have not been in more of the discussions but most were post op. I am finally having surgery on 4/6/10 and it is a long time coming.

Prayers are needed. Please give me any suggestions as well.

Happy Easter!

Teresa, I know exactly how you feel! I was losing weight quite fast and was super excited and then now I havent lost but maybe a pound in a week. I feel as if I should be losing but try to tell myself that my body is adjusting and I will start losing again. Now about the munching,  I do so great when my husband is not around, but when he is home and he insists I can have a little bit ohhh sometimes I go for it. I feel terrible and I feel as if I should have the will power to say no! I know the feeling of defeat when you cheat just that little bit. But I tell myself if I have a bad day that the next day I will try harder and ill walk longer. Keep your head up and you are doing amazing!

Jess

Thanks Teresa,

They are supposed to decide by the 14th but we will see.  I am trying to remain positive but I am a planner and the unknown is bugging me.  He said if the test came back okay that he could possibly fit me in later in the week.  We'll see.