Exploratory surgery

Hi all,

I don't post much anymore but I do lurk daily.

I'm going in for exploratory Surgery on the 19th and I'm scared.I have had alot of complications resulting in several Surgeries and a total gastrectomy.

I'm still having pain so they are going to attempt to do this lap no promissses though.I'm just a wreack and I can't stop crying.I've had so many surgeries and the recovery times have been so hard. Any words of wisdom from those who may have been here before?

Thanks in advance for any replies.