Just checking in

Want to say Hi to all and see how everyone's week is going...Keep me updated...Patricia

I DO NOT KNOW IF I AM DOING THIS CORRECTLY BUT, SO FAR I HAVE ONLY SEEN ONE PERSON WRITE.  HOW DOES THIS WORK?  THANKS. :)

JOY

At this point its just communicating back and forth I am trying to start and online chat time...So what's up? How are you and what would you like to share or talk about?  Patricia

Hi Patricia,
I found the link on MY OH. I will visit more often. I have had a rough week. I was having doubts about if I can really do this surgery. I am not afraid of the actual surgery, I am worry about afterward. I am concerned about ruining my health by screwing things up. I have failed at so many things. The people on OFF have been real encouraging. Then I went to my PCP for my 3 month checkup and I have lost a total of 14 pounds since I started my new diet. Now she wants me to wait a year for the wls because I have done so good. Then on top of it all, I had to put my best friend {Toby my golden retriever} down on Saturday. I miss him so much. I started smoking again and I carbed my self silly yesterday. No sugar but bread and pasta.

I go see my surgeon for the first time tommorrow. Here's hoping my next week will be better.I'll keep in touch. I will post a question too.

Love, Nancy

Hi Nancy: I am so sorry about your beloved Toby. I know how important pets are to many people and I know your loss is great.Hopefully, I am your fiend now and I must say that I am concerned because you started smoking again. I know how hard that was for you to do...start all over tomorrow is day 1. One day's mess up is not worth the entire ball of wax. Obese people often feel like they failed because of a slip...don't feel that way. You have done a great job in the weight dept. by losing the 14lbs. Congrats. Don't let your pcp put doubt in you desire for the WLS surgery. What frightens you about the WLS Surgery? I can tell you that you are still responsible to mainatin your good eating habits and good health practices.But, because of the restriction of the size of the pouch it will keep you from overeating. I see you are worried about ruining your health the WLS surgery you can have complications but, 99% of the people have such a great outcome and that should lend you encouragement. I was so excited before my surgery and now that I am 16 mos out I can tell you it has been the best thing I have done next to my dental implants to improve me and my health. Continue to talk to me and let me know how you are feeling. Have you made goals for yourself concerning WLS. Have you prayed about whether to go through with this? I asked God to stop me if it were not right for me and not His will...He did not. I journalled and let myself exam myself in the emotional department and that was an amazing journey...maybe you should try that...Let me know what scares you and how I can encourage you...Again I am soo sorry for you pain today and I appreciate all you are going through and the loneliness you feel because of Toby...my thoughts and prayers are with you... Patricia

Hi Patricia

thanks for your kind words. I ahve prayed to God to guide me in this and He has led me to OBH and all the new  friends I ahve made. I consider that as a plus. I am not journaling my feelings yet---just journaling food and my eating habits----of which I have found a lot of bad habits which I am beginning to change. I am starting a new group on Thursday and I know they require journaling too so I am going to keep a journal of my emotional progress through this too. I am starting something I haven't done since 1972---I am going to work for electing Obama President. I was a peace loving hippie in 1972 with all the trimmings. I am going to be answering phones and making phone calls. This is a big step for me because I haven't been involved in anything for ten years---since I gained so much weight. I am changing and it is all because I started this journey in wls. I think God is telling me I have made the right decision. And tomorrow I will know even more. I am getting excited again. Thanks for being my friend!!! i will let you know how things go tommorrow.

Love Nancy

I am so glad Nancy that you are participating in something you feel passionately about. You will get to meet some nice folks and they will encourage you along the way. Small steps ( I call them peep-peep steps) will lead you to your goal just as much as big strides. It just might take a little longer. Continue to ask God's direction in this decision. He will NEVER lead you down the wrong path. People can but He can't. Get involved in a good church and you will also find much encouragement there and remember there is this great Hymm and it stands true in congregations that love the Lord..."Just as I am without one plea, but that thy blood was shed for me and that thou bidst me come to thee...Oh Lamb of God I come, I come" "Just as i am though tossed about, with many a conflict many a doubt, fightings with fear within ,without Oh Lamb of God I come, I come..." He promises us He will Never Leave thhe nor Forsake Thee...No great promises than that...Love ya friend... Patricia Have a great day!

Hi.
Well I went to my first visit with my surgeon, social worker, two other doctors, a dietitian, physical therapist, and  a psyhcololgist. I tole them about my doubts and all my fears and they suggested I ahve the lapband. They called my PCP and she okayed it.  YEAH. I still have four more appointments with my dietitian, 2 years of medical records, and my psyh evalulation and I will get my surgery. My PCP has to write a letter to put in with my records just so they have somethng on file. I am so relieved. I feel at peace with the decision. Because of my mental illness they felt that the lapband would be better fro my becasue I can take ALL my meds. My anti-depressive meds is time release and I can take it with the lapband. I have to be more vigliant and care that I don't over eat because I can. I was told about all the risks involved. I ahve to go and see them once a month for a year and beyond. God was with me today. I believe I was having such a hard time with the ryn becasue it just wasn't His will for me. I just have to keep the faith and keep my eye on the light. I know the weight will be slower coming off but that's okay too. I see my counsler tommorrow about my evalulation and my new group. I will let you know how that goes. They were really happy I ahve made friends on this site and they are going to be training group leaders this weekend for Fergus Falls support group which is only 10 miles away. Thanks be to God. Love Always, Nancy