C'mon. Lets have a gab!

Hi all,

Well, here I am. I am wondering what you are all up to. Tomorrow IS Friday! I am taking tomorrow off.

I got some good news this week. The job I worked at in America and here in England as well as a contractor-they have HIRED me for real! I really cannot tell you how excited I am. I did NOT expect it at all!

Hmm-that starts me to thinking. Do any of you still struggle with self-esteem issues? If so-to what degree? If not-why? Have you always been confident-or did you learn it along the way?

I have always struggled with confidence. When I was a child and I would succeed at something-like ace a test, or make cheer leading-I would go to my Mum and ask her if she made them give me a high mark or pick me for a team! LOLOLOL!

Even now-my family is not surprised at all that I got hired-or that I did well at some task, but I AM!! I know this is something I really must work on.

I really do want to embrace all the positive that is in me..it's a learning thing I suppose!

Please share! I would love to hear.

Peace,
T

My lad is 12 tomorrow.  I was holding him, fighting tears at 12 minutes to 4 am in 1998.  If he wakes me up at that time this Friday he might not make it to his party!  lol

Now that is a wonderful post!! Aren't kids
amazing?? You sound like a good dad!!
Hope he sleeps in late!! Lol
cheers!!

Way to go, thats great news !

I still stuggle BIG time with  self-esteem issues, while I am 100% better than I was I was in such a bad place that I am no where near where a "normal" person is, I suspect that the "mental" side of my journey will actually take longer than the "Physical"side, but Im sure for anyone else who had a Bmi of 70 or over will have the same struggles.

You are so right...the mental side of the journey takes longer indeed. I think it is probably something that is never really "finished"-but the learning must be in the journey part!

I am immensely self critical and often painfully shy in my personal life, however I talk like I'm confident and smile like I'm having fun, and occasionally, just occasionally I have moments of believing in it. I often wonder if that would have been different if I had never been fat.

The weekend is upon us - and if we get a milder day, I'm going on a bike ride with one of the twins for about 5 miles, then take my 4 year old daughter out to learn how to ride her bike. Wish me luck with my daughter, that will be a true test of my fitness levels. XXX

I hope you had a WONDERFUL weekend and rode your bike to your heart's happiness!!

I also come across as confident and self-assured. However-underneath I am paddling like crazy!!

:)

Hi, T,    seems apposite to paste what I just put on the lb board! (Over explanation about education was for US readers!)..

Later today I am going to a Garden Party for a school reunion. School for us usually means 11-18 year old education.

I went to a Grammar School (selective entry so the 20% most intellectually able) and so all the old "girls" will have done well for themselves. And those who aren't high flyers themselves will almost certainly be married to men who are (40 years ago that was the way it quite often went!).

I am going to meet people I have not met for 40 years!! Plus a few I see quite often. But with the ones I haven't seen since I was 18,  I AM NOT GOING TO BE EMBARRASSED BY MY SIZE!  They won't know I have lost weight because I am the same size now I was when I left school - they just never saw me in the middle!

Four years ago, I would not have attended the reunion! Too ashamed! Now i am going with my head held high ready to have a great time!

Thank you, band!

Kate

So hope you enjoy yourself.  I'm an old Grammar School boy, good days...

Paul, it was great! Being a very self-motivated group of "gals" in the main, there was not a single fat person there (out of over 400 women). IThe old me would have been excrutiatingly embarrassed.

Kate