Celebrate Good Times COME ON !!!!!!!!!!!!

The following is taken from my blog, http://www.amazingshrinkinggaz.co.uk/blog

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I am as excited as kid on Christmas Eve !!!!!!….More on that later.

 

The Commute:

Today I was just 2 mins off my PB for the whole commute and yet I had done a little over 0.20 miles more and the PB was set when traffic was so much lighter, I can see it falling before too long !!!!!!

 

Both commutes were enjoyable as (almost always) laid the smack down to a pavement riding MTB’er this morning and said nasty words at Joby tonight

 

Managed many many pictures of Denton RLJ’ers AGAIN

 

 

The Good, The Bad and The UGLY:

SOOOOOOO The reason I’m so excited is all down to the fact I am now pretty sure that I weigh in at my lowest recorded adult weight, I am now officially in the 21stone range, Bonk training and sheer hard work has beaten the stall to death, RESULT.

I started at 1 or 2lbs under 40 STONE !!!! I sat here now, wearing clothes from Asda/Tesco etc and Astana pro team cycling shorts a PROUD PROUD MAN !!!!! but the time to pat myself on the back is not now…..I weigh in at the 21 stone range and that is where a lot of people START a weight loss journey……there is MUCH work to do……I knew early in my journey that I had to rebuild myself and I knew that it started on the inside, I was a broken man, I had no confidence, I walked with my head to the floor, I didn’t want anyone to see what I had become, I held so much bitterness inside from a hellish childhood it was destroying me….It took me around 6 months to deal with the majority of my demons (some still follow me now and some I will just have to learn to live along side with)….You don’t get to almost 40 stone without having some sort of eating disorder again while this is not fully behind me things are better, My goal for the next 12 months is to get as close to my goal as I can while dealing with a few more demons and putting my eating issues well behind me.

 

The Bad:

You there is bad in this and that is that some people just want to test your resolve every day, telling me to take a break from cycling, or to have a “treat" food wise, sorry but a treat is getting my life back and not stuffing my face with chocolate  thank you VERY much !!!!!! So far, I have passed these silly little tests though and long may it continue !!!!

 

The Ugly:

This is hard for me to write but I’m pretty sure that most people will know this already anyways, dropping from almost 40 stone, to the 21 stone range is of course not without negative side effects one of the biggest is skin or excess skin, I thought when I lost 15 stone and had ZERO issues with skin that I was in the clear, However that is just not the case, I had issues with my arms, top of my legs, stomach and a couple of other places, all of a sudden it is pretty bad, I look at it and its not nice, I of course keep well covered, there is possible options that I will be able to look at in a few more stone but right now I have to admit…IT SUCKS………but….would I change it ? No of course no, its a side effect of keeping me alive and giving me LIFE !!!!!! Yeah it sucks ass REAL bad but I deal with it, Maybe as I say I will be able to get it removed later down the line but if no its part of who I have become and I have gone from a shy,introverted,lacking confidence person to someone who walked head held high, chest puffed out PROUD of what I have done so far…………

 

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