When do you stop saying I CANT and start proving you CAN ???

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What do you do when the only thing holding you back is………Yourself ?

In January last year I recorded some thoughts and feelings. Today I publish them below:

 

I thought to myself At over 550 Lbs (or 39 stone):

I cant sit in a normal seat

I cant go to the gym, I don't have time

I cant do any normal day to day thing without issues

I cant find anything that fits

I cant get that motivation that I need

and I cant control this anymore, I am at rock bottom and have given up all hope

and right at that point something click that told me I was worth it and I was worth fighting for

 

When do you stop saying I CANT and start proving you CAN ???

Im in my 20’s. Someone told me these were supposed to be the best years ever. At 28 although I have accomplished things I have not been happy, I could have accomplished  so much more, should have, would have, COULD HAVE.

Today I'm talking those feelings and every single day I’m remembering where it is I have come from, I dare not think ahead to what it will be like WHEN (Not if) I get to my goal weight, I have been obese my whole life, I don't have a “Grown Up" image of what not being obese actually means, actually feels like or actually is.

The Future:

Yesterday at work I was talking to a colleague who I think of more as a friend and he somehow managed to get inside my head and change my outlook from “Yea I'm doing ok but can do better" to “Look at what I have done, look at what I will STILL be doing for the rest of my life, the world is what I want to make of it" Half way though that conversation I went for lunch, While on lunch I received a call from a media outlet asking for an interview. It was like everything was clicking into place, I did the interview and instead of doing what I had done on my last 2 and playing things down everything I said was from the heart, I look forward to seeing it in print, Keep your eyes peeled here for info.

I want to give something back, I want to “Pay it forward" I have been considering (when closer to goal) of looking into becoming a personal trainer to those out there who are in the state I was when I started this, Let us see in 12 months if I still want to and if I have done anything about it !

My Hip:

My hip isn't half as bad as it was but its still pretty sore when twisting/turning but I'm getting through this, I'm pushing though the pain, Pain is temporary it may last a month but it WILL go, However if I quit that will stay with me forever. 

This Week:

I managed 65 Miles this week, Not great but I will take it, Had a few up’s and downs with my weight but at weigh in time I'm glad to say I didn't gain anything, I didn't loose anything else but I'm fine with that, I'm in this for the long haul one week where I don't loose or gain weight after loosing around 45% of my body weight is fine by me.

Music:

So I was asked about what I have on my MP3 player and why, SO here is a lit of my top 5 tunes:

Heather Small – Proud – The reason, well the lyrics “What have YOU done today to make you feel proud" pretty much sum everything up for me, If ever I need a butt kicking then I skip to this tune, It has always been my number one workout song and always will be.

Journey – Don’t stop believing, Very uplifting tune with lyrics to get you through any sever headwind.

Anberlin – Breath, If you don't know it, Go find it, Its up there with Proud as a song that will ALWAYS be with me and my MP3 player.

Coldplay – Viva La Vida, Anything with such an uplifting beat is always good to push your average spped up a few more MPH

Tina Turner – We don't need another hero, I took me a while to stop looking for a hero to help me and realize that I can, if I want, become my own hero and help myself.

 

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You have certainly proved that you CAN!  And the best thing of all is that you have done it while in your 20s.

I have also shown I CAN but I have so many years behind me of watching. Watching my children play cricket on the beach and not joining in; watching friends do sports and not joining in. Watching shop windows full of lovely clothes and not buying.

Not 30 wasted years -my life has been good! But 30 years when i could have done so much more!

Not for you! You will be able to take part and no****ch!

Kate

Yeah your so right, we have all achieved something but it could have been so much more, lets hope its not too late, I have dreams and I want to make them come true now

As always-amazing and inspiring Gaz!

Yes-there is that moment when we step out into that darkness..somewhere between all the fear and defeat and the hope that MAYBE we have a chance!! It is at that moment where we need  to give ourselves the most respect and kindness. Stepping out in faith is not an easy task. It is the most wonderful thing we will do as a human on this earth.

As always-you ROCK!

Peace
T

It takes such a long time to realise that we are stong, We can do it, Im still learning but we can learn here together, We stand and fight together and we will SUCSEED together.

Thanks Miss Red, You too.