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Good Tues morn all,

Well, its been a trying week already.  Dealing with temper tantrums from my 7 yr old is wearing me down mentally and physically.  But, i cant just throw in the towel, because i am a parent first and fore most.  I have my 12 yr old here for the summer and he is a great help.

I have been able to get some exercise everyday, but not much.  I am eating less which is a blessing.  I also have type I diabetes so the less I eat, the more controlled my sugars are.


Everyone keep posting, we love to hear from you, good or bad.  We are here to listen.

bm

 I have been wanting to go back to school for a long time.  I want to become a bariatric nurse due to all my complications along my wls journey.  I have been out of school so long that I had to retake the placement tests.  I started taking the test and right away had difficulty with the college level algebra so in my head I started retreating.  Thinking I can't do this.  Come to find out that I scored below college level on the reading section, but I was close.  I feel soo stupid and am really depressed over it.  I was always in the advanced classes in school and never really had any problems.  Now I am second guessing myself on whether or not I will even be able to handle the classes if I can't pass the basic test!  I was so embarassed and didn't know what to tell everyone when they asked how my test went.  I just wanted to cry.  I wouldn't have told anyone the truth how it went except for the fact my friend was standing there when I heard my results.  She told my sister and the word spread from there.  She only told her that because she was worried at how depressed I was and wasn't sure how to help.  I'm not mad at her or anything.  I have always felt like a failure because I am the only child out of my family of five that does not have a college degree.  
So that is what I am dealing with that I needed to get out.

I think the only thing that kept me from totally spiraling down into a major depressive episode was the fact that we had our annual camping and theme park trip planned.  We had that this weekend.  We camped in the middle of some major storms and everything got wet!  In spite of the rain I still managed to have fun.  I got in plenty of exercise at the water park climbing up the steps to get on the water slides.

Thanks for letting me vent!  I feel a little better just writing down how I felt.  

Stephanie E

To answer some of my questions..... I think I am coming along fine with my emotional health.  The issue I am dealing with currently is having my 7 yr old tested for adhd.  She is going through a series of evaluations now.  The problem I have is dealing with temper tantrums.  Trying to figure out the trigger and to keep it from excalating.  Its very hard with my bipolar to control my feelings as well as dealing with the stress!  Thats why we are both getting help.

I did have some ME time alone this weekend.  It was refreshing with no kids around.  Got to catch up on some journaling.

As far as the diet goes, still a work in progress.  But I did get walking in.

ttys,

bm

Steph -

Sounds like you have a fun weekend ahead of you!  And to be able to get prepared for the trip with less anxiety is one of the best feelings in the world.  Are your iron infusions due to malabsorption?  Just curious.

Not too much going on this weekend.  Got to take my dog back to the vet for a bandage change.  He busted open his wound so they are gonna let it heal as is.

My husband works Fathers Day, so I will probably just make a special dinner.



ttyl,

bm

I made better choices as far as food goes weds.  but still overate.  I did walk for 30 mins at the dog park though.

Today is a brand new day and a chance to restart positive behavior!



BM