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 Thanks for your very thorough post. I am actually going to print it out and research the medications you mentioned. Grazing at night is a big problem for me. Some days are better than others. Once I slip and have a carb, forget it. It is like a free for all. :(  

Hopefully one day soon I can again feel like the strong person that I know I once was. Thanks for your support. :)

 I have been trying to be a little more thoughtful of what I put into my mouth even though I have the I don't care attitude. Since coming back to the boards and posting I have moved past my stall. Maybe the meds are kicking in and helping too. Hoping that I can get over this hump and get back to a normal life soon.

Thanks for your reply. :)

Hey, Charity,  I'm really glad you posted.  these freakin' mental illnesses just screw things up!!!  i have major depression also, was on disability for about 18 months, and generally feel like i know some of what you're feeling.  and it sucks.  i hope the lamictal helps -- it really gave me energy that i had never had before.  so, hoping that for you too.

i'm certainly not the food expert -- only 3 mos in -- but i know it must be hard to take care of your eating when you don't care about taking care of yourself.  i mean, i know it is, b/c i've been there.  so, no brilliant ideas about food.  pls be kind to yourself, take one tiny step at a time, maybe do one little thing a day that makes you feel like you are taking care of your sleeve life.

hope this helps a little.  i'm sending you my best thoughts!!!! 

My name is Charity. I had my surgery Oct 21 2011. I have lost 86 lbs since then. I have severe depression, bi-polar and recently diagnosed with add or adhd. I don't remember what the doc said. One of my symptoms is hearing and memory. Anyway, I have not been following my diet the way I should. I am under a lot of stress in all areas of life. I am out of work due to all of this so I am working towards disability. I have real bad insomnia and the sleep meds (once they GET me to sleep, if they do) keep me drugged out the next day. I am eating way to often, and noticing that I am able to eat more than I should at 5 and a half months out. I am doing everything wrong and I can't seem to stop myself. I don't want this to have been a waste of time or money or my last chance. I live with one of my daughters and her boyfriend and they eat anything and I find myself eating what they eat instead of making my own food cause I just don't have the motivation or energy to do it. 

I am lost, confused, frustrated and angry at myself for messing this up and not doing anything about it and it is almost like I don't care. But then again, right now, I don't care about anything. I am on Lamotrigine and Topiramate and Celexa. The first two are new and will be weaned off the Celexa as the dosage of the other two are increased over time. I used to be a strong person and now I just feel like mush. 

Not sure why I am posting. Not looking for sympathy but maybe ideas on how to get me to see the light and get me to stop stretching my stomach. Or maybe its too late and I have already stretched it. 

Thanks for reading

totally with you on the nap!!!!  it's lashing rain outside and cold (79 yesterday, 58 today) and nothing sounds better than curling up on the couch in front of a hot tv.  feeling unusually tired today (death in the family yesterday), so sacking out is VERY appealing.  trying to  mend my couch potato ways, but can't seem to exercise  . . .

who else?!?!?