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Nothing is right for everyone.  Since addicts largely live and die with their addictions, I think its a worthwhile resource for many.  A therapist is not an option for a lot of us.  OA and other 12 step programs fill a void inspite of their imperfections. 

I went to one f2f OA meeting over 20 years ago.  It was in and out.  I found it a group of pathetic whiners and could not get with the concept of having no control.  I don't understand your comment about monastic rule.  However, with some guidance, I've taken their generic higher power concept and adapted to Catholicism .  

I still don't "get it".  I have not worked the steps.  However, the meetings keep me cognizant of my behavior.  The shares I once called whining remind me that other screwed up people are also there trying.  Despite the fact that many are smo, they are working on their behavior. 

I don't know if it will be of long term value for me but right now its a resource.  I hope we both find the long term answer to managing any dysfunctional food related behaviors we deal with. 

Made it through the weekend.  Not without a little hiccup, but I will get through it as today is a new day.  Weekends with the family are the most difficut for me and this weekend was especially difficult because we had plans and I was hardly home at all, but here's how it went.

Yesterday:

B - Coffee

L - salad w/ egg, ham and honey mustard dressing.

D - 1/2 of a hot dog and 1/3 of an order of fries at the Civic Center

S - Apple slices with a spoon of P/B.

NO EVIL sweets!!  Granddaughter had a cookies and cream chocolate bar and I asked her not to eat it in front of me (and she didn't).

OA doesn't work for me.  I was in OA for 20 years and gained 300 lbs.  I'd become abstinate and become a food sponsor and then have to give that up when I slipped.  I did extensive step work and became a step sponsor and it all fell apart.  It migh have been problems with my mental condition.

Overall, I don't believe in all 12 steps of a 12 step program.  they are based on a monastic rule from the 5th century and probably work well in a monastery.  They've had limited success in treating addictions.  My shrinks over the years have told me they're only successful about 35% of the time.  They pointed out that that may be due to the insidiousness of addictions or to people simply not sticking with the programs.   

I don't knock OA.  I do know that it works for some people.  Even though I don't follow all 12 steps, I agree with the 1st 3 steps whenever I want to get honest with myself about my eating.

So, how'd everyone do?  Weekends are SO tough.  Not that I'd want to work 7 days a week, but working DOES give me a routine.  I need to work on my weekends.

Yesterday:

B - Protein bar

S - 2 hardboiled egg whites

L - Ham/cheese roll-ups
     Cheese crisps

D - Baked ham
      Green beans

S - Pepperoni/cheese crisps

Today:

B - Greek yogurt with pbj/granola

S - 2 hardboiled egg whites

L - Baked chicken
     Green beans

S - Cheese crisps, protein bar, banana (NOT all 3!!!)

Anyone have any good recipes to share?  I made the pepperoni crisps by laying turkey pepperoni on a paper towel-lined plate and nuking them for about a minute.  Cheese crisps - Shredded parm cheese, mixed with garlic salt and Italian seasoning - Make mounds out of 1-1/2 tsp. of mixture on a parchment paper lined baking sheet and bake at 400 degrees for about 20 minutes.  Watch carefully so they don't burn!!!

Have a great day!

Tia

I keep trying to be abstinate from addicting food but I slip frequently.  I accept my condition and resolve to do better.  This has been going on for a long time.  However, with my mental illnessof being manic-depressive, I sometimes have to decide whether to allow myself a small portion of a problem food or going crazy avoiding it.  I do exhibit crazy behavior at times such as literally banging my head against a wall; I know it doesn't accomplish anything and it hurts.  Sometimes making the effort to stay clean depresses me despite my meds.

I remember the freedom I felt last year when I had 4.5  months of abstinence from addicting food.  I lost 50 lbs over that period of time.  However, I lost a few more lbs through Oct.  I gained 3.5 lbs over the holidays.  I get weighed once a month and just found that I lost 4 lbs since 01-08.  Things aren't as bad as they could be.

I learned a lot last year from the Beck's Diet Solution, and I'm slowly reviewing it on the Hunger and Food Troubles Forum.  Even though I make mistakes, I can help others when I see where they are in the Becks Group.  Note:  you won't get to that group if you enter it as Beck's .   Don't put in an apostrophe.

I just had to post this time to be honest with you.  I won't post every slip, but I don't want to appear to be living a clean program when I am not.