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My obesity began in graduate school when I was diagnosed with clinical depression. Since then my weight has fluctuated greatly. I am currently at my heaviest weight of 275 lbs. My most significant weight loss was 40 pounds but over the past 7.5 years I have gained and lost - gained and lost, ultimately resulting in a gain of about 80 pounds. I cannot continue on this path.
I have been seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist about my depression for many years and I'm finally at a point where I'm stable emotionally. Unfortunately, some of my medications have the side effect of weight gain. I hate where I am physically and I want change. My RNY surgery is scheduled for 1/20/09 and I'm both excited, anxious and frightened - which, I understand, is normal. I'm grateful for having found this support system.
Mica,
I'm delighted to meet you and look forward to getting to know you better over the course of our respective journies.
Wishing you continued success,
Barbara
ObesityHelp Coach and Support Group Leader
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/bcumbo_group/
High-264, Current-148, Goal-145
I saw my surgeon last Wednesday and he wants to see me in another 6 weeks after I have lost another 25 lbs.(because of my lungs) I will have been on the liquid diet for awhile by then and I am hoping that he schedules me for surgery before the end of February.
My name is Barbara. I'm 50 years old. I have been married to my DH Ben for over 30 years. We have 3 children; 27 year old twin sons; Chris and Mike and our 14 year old daughter Sarah. Chris married the most wonderful young woman this year and now Christine had joined our family.
I was a normal sized child up to the age of 7. At that point, I started to chunk up. I remember obsessing about my weight at the age of 8 and on and on... I was a chunky, chubby kid in elementary school, a fat kid in middle school and became obese in high school. By the time I married Ben, much to my distress I was well over 200 lbs and wore a size 22 wedding dress. I remained over 200 lbs for the next 30 years. Of course, I'd lose some and gain it back, and a little more... but I never was able to consistently keep my weight below 200 lbs.
In 2006 I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and about the same time my dear mother was diagnosed with stage 3 kidney failure, a complication of her own Type 2 Diabetes. I decided that I was looking in the mirror as I looked at my mother and didn't like what I was seeing. Like many others that look into and undergo any type of WLS, I had tried nearly everything else. Sometimes, I'd have moderate success with initial weightloss, but no lasting success. I felt like I had to do something that would give me much better odds at shedding the weight and more importantly better odds of keeping that weight off in the long term.
I had RNY surgery through Duke WLS Center in June of 2007. My high weight was 264. My weight when I entered the program at Duke was 248. I weighed 233 when I had surgery. My lowest weight was 132 and I now weigh 139.
For me the most important thing is that my Type 2 Diabetes is resolved. My quality of life has improved immeasurabily. I wear a size 4/6 in my pants and a 6/8 in my tops/dresses.
I have some excess skin and have struggled some with my feellings about that, but that's getting better.
For me, while getting the weight off was a lot of work, maintenance has been harder for me than losing. I am working hard at retooling my thoughts and actions as they relate to food. Like a marriage, the first year is full of adjustments, but is a honeymoon. It's after the first year, when the hard work of maintenance sets in.
Thanks for taking a minute to get to know some about me. I look forward to getting to about you too!
Barbara
ObesityHelp Coach and Support Group Leader
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/bcumbo_group/
High-264, Current-148, Goal-145
Hi -
As many of you know I hold in-person support group meetings in Raleigh NC. One of the things that we do at each meeting is go around the room, introduce ourselves and share some about our journey. How much people share varies with their comfort level. I'd like to do something similar here, so I've started this "Introductions" thread that will remain at the top of this board.
I'll start the introductions by introducing myself. I hope that each of you will add your own introduction and will keep visiting this thread to meet new members.
Barbara
ObesityHelp Coach and Support Group Leader
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/bcumbo_group/
High-264, Current-148, Goal-145
Since Barb asked me for my two cents I'll throw in a quarter. I weigh myself everyday not as obsession but more as a gage to make sure I am still doing the right things. If my weight climbs I re-evaluate what I am eating or not doing. I am almost 3 years out now and am still within 5lbs of 219lbs after losing 241lbs overall. I try and just eat a normal diet now days but I also do eat thinks that are on the "not good" list but I also recognize there is a price to pay so Oreo turn into an extra 5 miles hiking to burn them off. WLS has taught me there is no "free lunch" in this world.I can eat anything I am willing to pay for with exercise. It may not be the perfect solution but it works for me and I am in the best health of my life and I still drink Margaritaa and enjoy all life has to offer everyday.
Good Luck,
Tim
Jennifer,
What a great, thoughtful and inspiring response! I agree that I too think about my weight much more conciously now than I ever did before. I don't think it's negative or obsessive, but I weight daily. I know that I have a 'normal' window of fluxutation, but I keep an eye on it. Before, I could go weeks, months, even years without knowing my weight. Like you, I am also much more aware of what I'm eating and while I on occasion have 'forbidden' fruits, it is generally in moderation and on occasion where before, it would have been all time... especially, now that I'm under sooooo much stress. I still gravitate towards comfort eating, but I'm working hard at and mostly succeeding at moderation... I can tell that I'm succeeding because my scales are staying where they need to.
I want you to know that you are a voice of reason in the storm for me sometimes and I truly appreciate it.
Hugs,
Barbara
ObesityHelp Coach and Support Group Leader
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/bcumbo_group/
High-264, Current-148, Goal-145
Now, the healthier and leaner Jennifer thinks about food and maintaining my weight loss all day long. Each time I put something in my mouth I think about what I have eaten all day long. I keep a loose track of calories ingested. I was wearing a pedometer like Barb, but when I realized I was taking between 15K and 25K steps everyday I just tossed it because just my average day is BUSY BUSY. I also have started working out doing yoga and strength exercises. I pay close attention to what my family eats and we make conscious decisions to be healthier.
I will not sit here and tell you guys any lies. I still eat things that are too carby and too sweet. I still eat too much on occassion. (You better believe my body lets me know that too!) But I think the differerence is that I am eating/thinking/acting like a thin person now. I dont eat a whole bag of chips.. I eat a small handful. I dont eat 3 candy bars at a time. I might eat a couple of snack sized bars. For me this whole journey has been about moderation. It has been a change of lifestyle, attitude and outlook. I know that I can maintain this weight loss by not being a "carb nazi" or "fat gram nazi".. I can just pay attention and make sure that I am making healthy choices. I am the only person that can control that!!!
As we all know, we will need to change the habits of a lifetime, to ensure our longterm success. Let's inspire one another and share success habits we are putting into place.
I use a pedometer to make sure that I'm moving enough. I shoot for 10K steps a day. If it's getting later into the day and I realize the I'm off quite a bit, I take a break and go for a walk to boost my count. 10K steps equals about 4 miles walked. I find that when I'm wearing my pedometer and trying to register more steps on it, I'll park farther from the store, take the stairs, instead of the elevator, etc...
Please add your success habit to this thread.
Barbara
ObesityHelp Coach and Support Group Leader
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/bcumbo_group/
High-264, Current-148, Goal-145