The Loser's Bench
I got my surgery date
Hi Melissa,
Like you, I was nervous about my upcoming surgery for a variety of reasons. To calm my nerves and get some relative perspective, I made a list of what I thought would/could happen if I did have the surgery, versus what might happen if I didn't. I ran through the full gamut of possibilities. One that frightened me, was that I might die trying, but when I made my list I realized I might also die not trying and realized that I wanted to do this more than I was afraid of it. I'm glad I did.
I think that the other things I was afraid of where if I 'could' do what I needed to do to make this successful, especially since I never could before. My answer to that before surgery was a 'leap of faith', but my answer to it now, is that I never had the tools at my disposal before surgery that I have now. I really do not think that I could or would have lost the weight without the surgery and I also know that I would not have been able to maintain the weight loss without my new tool. I also have needed to employ some additional tools to my arsenal to get the weight off and keep it off, but I don't believe that they would be nearly as effective without the aid of my WLS tool. I was also afraid that I'd always have to eat like a 'freak', but that's not the case. I eat like someone should normally. I eat reasonable portions or just about whatever I want, but I consider what that will be. It's all a matter of relative balance for me, but a balance that I couldn't attain before.
If you read my blog, I think you'll find that I wrote some about this and how I dealt with it.
Wishing you all the best,
Barbara
ObesityHelp Coach and Support Group Leader
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/bcumbo_group/
High-264, Current-148, Goal-145