The Loser's Bench
I got my date!!
I have been given my surgery date! December 30th! I go to the hospital my old self & I will be released on Jan 1st (God willing) and I will leave to start my new life in the new year. It is all falling into place. I am eager & anxious, excited & meloncholy, comforted & nervous and at times overwhelmed by all the possiblities.
I know you have all been through this and are probably smiling or shaking your heads, but is what I am experiencing normal?
I have little to no concern about the actual procedure. I know that may sound strange, but I do beleive that I have a top notch team in place and that this is where my life journey is supposed to be going. My challenges fall in the future, I suppose. I have been heavy since I was just out of High School 30 years or so. I look at the before & after photos on this website, and I have a tough time wrapping my arms around the enormous changes in folks; always for the better! I do have some insecurities about my personality. I am a ton of fun, very entertaining and funny, I hope this is my true persona and not someone I developed over the years to take the attention off my weight challenges. I am an extrovert, so that most likely will not change.
We pulled some old photos of me out of the albums and posted them under the glass on the family room coffee table. Most have me overweight, but when I look at them I see me as I am today. My husband gently explained to me that I was not exactly as I appeared in the photos. I did not believe him so we took some new ones & I was amazed at the difference! I had never noticed that I had gotten fat!! I knew I was full figured, but fat? When did it happen? Just struggling with where the body shape will go after surgery I suppose. This sounds so superficial when I re-read it, but it is the honest truth about what I am experiencing. I hope there is someone out there who can empathize and relate.
So on New Years Eve I will have begun my new life journey with the help of my mediacl team, my family, my freinds and my support group. Thanks to you all.
Dona
I know you have all been through this and are probably smiling or shaking your heads, but is what I am experiencing normal?
I have little to no concern about the actual procedure. I know that may sound strange, but I do beleive that I have a top notch team in place and that this is where my life journey is supposed to be going. My challenges fall in the future, I suppose. I have been heavy since I was just out of High School 30 years or so. I look at the before & after photos on this website, and I have a tough time wrapping my arms around the enormous changes in folks; always for the better! I do have some insecurities about my personality. I am a ton of fun, very entertaining and funny, I hope this is my true persona and not someone I developed over the years to take the attention off my weight challenges. I am an extrovert, so that most likely will not change.
We pulled some old photos of me out of the albums and posted them under the glass on the family room coffee table. Most have me overweight, but when I look at them I see me as I am today. My husband gently explained to me that I was not exactly as I appeared in the photos. I did not believe him so we took some new ones & I was amazed at the difference! I had never noticed that I had gotten fat!! I knew I was full figured, but fat? When did it happen? Just struggling with where the body shape will go after surgery I suppose. This sounds so superficial when I re-read it, but it is the honest truth about what I am experiencing. I hope there is someone out there who can empathize and relate.
So on New Years Eve I will have begun my new life journey with the help of my mediacl team, my family, my freinds and my support group. Thanks to you all.
Dona
Dona,
Welcome to the group and congratulations on your upcoming surgery... What an incredibly wonderful way to the start the new year with a new you.
My husband will have Dr. Portenier perform his RNY on 12/11/08 and I must agree that you both have an excellent medical team to launch you on to this incredilbe, life-changing journey.
I look forward to getting to know you as you make your way.
Barb
Barbara
ObesityHelp Coach and Support Group Leader
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/bcumbo_group/
High-264, Current-148, Goal-145
