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I think OverEaters Anon would work for now. So in the mean time you could possibly get a PenPal from here. There is a section for that as well. I have one and it is great.
You are more than welcome!

Thanks, TNgal.  I appreciate the support.  You are right, when we challenge ourselves and meet or exceed the challenge, we gain confidence and better self esteem. 

I have checked under my state and area for support groups and there is one that meets regularly in my metro area but it's about and hour and a half away and that distance is more than I'd like but, I haven't ruled it out.  Overeaters Anonymous is close by and meets once a week and I'm considering that, as well.  I do intend to ask the psychologist about others, too.  Then I'll make a choice.

Of course, this medium is helpful, too, and I will continue to tap it.

Thanks again!

I confess... I'm a delinquent.  Haven't posted in awhile.  So, I am making my contribution to end the lull.

I still don't have a surgery date but, progress has been made.  I've met with the surgeon and further defined insurance requirements.  All my testing is scheduled (labs, xrays, etc.) and will be completed on 9/1. 

I've fulfilled the 2 support group meeting requirement and will be continuing to go though.  I had hoped that they would more interactive but, they are good just the same.  These groups are more presentation/informational.  There is the opportunity to meet and talk afterward but it is not a structured exchange session.  I will have to find that elsewhere and I am hoping that, in my psych eval on the 22nd, I will get more information I was looking to get something specifically focused on WLS people.  I'll take what's available.

I have decided to join LA Fitness as they have an Aqua Fit program in the mornings that will provide my needed exercise without aggravating my knee and back issues.

I continue to hear good things about my surgeon, Dr. Smith, from doctors and patients and that certainly is encouraging.

I also continue to discover my demons and try to face my fears.  These are the more difficult aspects of this journey.  I laid some cards on the table to my mother last week and, as expected, she pretty much swept them under the rug and responded in anger.  It helped me to realize one of my triggers and why I now have difficulty talking to people about my feelings.  It's awareness and understanding, at least a step in that direction, and I hope another step on the road to recovery from food addiction.  My issues are with talking face to face; I don't have much problem writing about them.  Of course, I'm writing to people who are not family and have the same issues as I do.  I'm pretty much afraid of people so I have trouble trusting and it takes me a long time to get to know people and let them in, if at all.  I hope to change that with God's help.

So, that's where I'm at right now... moving forward one baby step at a time.

 Haha, thank you Kathy!   I've made it to my 30th birthday under 300, and weighing less than when I gave birth to my son and started working at my current job five years ago.  =D

Thank you so much Kathy! My name is Elizabeth.  I loved the slips of paper idea, I'll do this :) 

I feel hungry all the time, I do ok during the day when I am at work and busy but when I get home all I can think about is eating.  I try to keep healthy choices front and center but calories are calories.  I have started using WW as a guide for my total calorie intake, before I had to remind myself to eat.  It feels like a roller coaster and its so confusing. 

I started training for a half marathon to keep my excited about excercise but have fallen off a bit.  It seems that once you miss more than a day its hard to jump back in.  I feel really sluggish so there is even less motivation to get going again.  I should let my playful pups get me out more.

I got down to the lowest point of my healthy BMI range and then got sick and lost an additional 10 poinds.  I loved the way I felt, but people sad I looked emaciated.  I got better and gained weight back, then started feeling hungry all the time and gained some more.  So I have gone from hearing "don't lose anymore weight" to "you don't want to gain anymore."

I feel like I have traded the problems of an obese woman for a whole other set of problems, now I just obsess about the prospect of failure. I have seen so many people gain it all back.  On top of the fact that I would be personally devestated, I feel like everyone is watching me just waiting for me to fail.

I am going to search out support, focus on healthy nutrition, healthy thinking and excercise.  That's all I know to do....

Thanks again~ Elizabeth