liquid protein diet

i am doing the ten day liquid protein diet right now and struggling.  i am constantly hungry even with the vegetables that i am allowed to had.  i do work around food so that is hard.  i haven't cheated at work but i have cheated at home two times.  i finally threw away all the stuff that was in my fridge that i'm not allowed to have.  i thought i had an ok relationship with food but now realize that my worst time is in the evening when i am watching tv.  i tended to watch tv and snack in the evening.  what to do with myself during that time is the hardest part of the day.  i am intentionally going away this weekend to a friend's house who is also on a strict diet (different than mine) so that i can just get through the next three days.  i have to be on the protein diet until tuesday, may 29 and then do a clensing with clear liquids on may 30 then my surgery is planned for may 31.  i'm just afraid that i have not made enough of the lifestyle changes during the past year or so.  how would i know if i am making the right decision for myself?  i have so much riding on this and the hopes and dreams of my family as well.  i feel like if i change my mind i will be not only letting myself down as well as my family's.  i want to be active with my dad and go hiking, camping and biking with him which i cannot do right now.  i have a gym membership pending but can't seem to get myself to go and actually sign up.  they are holding everything at the front desk waiting for me to sign up.  maybe i'm just getting cold feet cause it's so close to the surgery date.  i also want to run a 5k with my friend.  she ran her first one a few weeks ago and i promised i would run with her sometime.  i do have goals but are they enough?

 Hang in there... Don't give up...  I had the same challenges that you mentioned and once I had the surgery all struggles ended one week after.  It is not easy but always think of the bright side; after the surgery, and all the goals you have set for yourself and achieving them one at a time to reach your ultimate goal.

With regards to the cheating with the food and struggles...You need to really dig deep and think what is bringing the craving...It is a habit issue...it could be that you have been used to eating while watching TV, as a habit, and maybe you are not hungry.....You need to then find something to do to replace that habit...take a walk, go to you public library, spend time with people who will not focus on food as their priority....It has worked for me, so it is not 100% proof, but bringing positive thoughts and the way i might look in the future after it is all done....it has succeded 99.9% of the time.

You have some pretty awsome goals mentioned and there are a couple of days left...so hang in there and make your self proud and make all of us proud.

Taz-Man-Du