Surgery is in 1 Day...

I know from reading everything I can on OH that it is normal to feel nervous and scared.  But is it normal to feel so scared you actually think you could do without the surgery.  I'm also scared because during the liquid diet - I slipped very small slips but still slip ups and it doesn't help with the fear.  (the slips during liquid pre-op was on 3rd day I had a creamy soup with a little bit of broccoli and then on day 4 I had a bite of chicken) now I know I can stick to it but the soup was I was so hungry on 3rd day and the chicken was a mindless thing I did because I was cooking dinner for my family.  Did I mess up totally because of my fear of the surgery and sabotage myself? I'm very upset so much so I can't sleep. 

Marcia NOBODY is perfect. Your "slip-ups" don't sound too serious and remember, after WLS you will have a wonderful ally: your new digestive system!

Marcia,

     I agree with Amalia. You are being to hard on yourself. We are all human. None of us are perfect, Relax. Take a couple of long, deep breaths.     Mag    

Sounds like you have the usual case of pre surgery jitters Marcia.  You did not sabatoge your surgery with the couple of slips.  Welcome to being human. 

The ability to follow the healthy eating plan after surgery is the focus.  I have complete faith that you will sail through the day tomorrow.  Take a few extra deep breaths today, as  you follow the plan for eating or not eating today, based on your surgeon's orders.

Calm your brain, take a mental vacation to someplace relaxing.  Imagine yourself already done with surgery, participating is things that you can not do right now.  A few minutes spent relaxing in your minds eye will help.  We are here to support your efforts along the adventure.  Let the losing begin!!!  Hugs

Thank you all,
  You are a Godsend.  I was really getting so jittery I almost thought of not having the surgery but with your help and others on her and my husband and therapist - I am feeling better and trying to envision what life will like on the other side and keeping myself distracted today as my therapist put it.  I can follow this plan I have found that out through this pre-op diet phase it was just so hard because of the hunger in the first 3 days I thought I could kill someone I was so irritable and hungry hahaha.  But tomorrow is closer than ever now and I'm not so hungry anymore.  The urge to eat is subsiding somewhat :) Thanks for being the voice of reason on this path.

Marcia, take your before pics and measurements today.  You will look back on this data at some point and be simply amazed.  There will be days where you seem to have hit a plateau, remeasure and compare, for the pick me up that you need. 

You are welcome, we all need a voice of reason when our nerves have gone overboard.  Hugs

Thanks will do :)

At this point I hope you've already sailed through surgery and are in la-la land of pain meds. Take it easy and follow your post-op instructions. In 6 months when you feel 10 years younger, you'll look back on yesterday and think, "What was I so scared of?!?!"

Best wishes!!