I found my way back ...

Hello All,

It has been a very long time since I posted. So much has been going on and I cant find enough hours in the day. And finally at work today got some down time and was thinking about everyone here.

Lets see where to start .....

total loss: little over 100 pounds .. I think it is about 105 - 110

We will start with my weight loss, I am now 18 months post op, and LOVE MY SELF!! I made it to my goal (for the most part) I made it to size 10 jeans, and a Medium top (tee shirt that is, woman's cut is still goofy that's an XL) My weight bounces between 155 - 160 My goal was 150. But that's OK. I am very HAPPY. I did talk to the doctor about plastic surgery.. Looking for a tummy tuck and breast lift. I know I can get the tuck done, don't think I will get the breast lift covered. But going to talk to the doctor. My bypass doctor told me I can try to get pregnant now if I wanted. I do but I don't ... if that makes any sense. I want to have a baby, BUT I don't want to gain any weight. I'm don't gonna lie, I went off all birth control pills a few months ago, and nothing has happened. BUT keep in mind I have a slim to no chance of getting pregnant any way with all my medical problems pre-bypass. As well as my husband having problems too. But that's OK, I have decided if I never get pregnant I am OK with that (Kinda)

I am a foster mommy of 2, we have a beautiful 8 month old little girl who takes up most of my time, and a 10 yr old boy. Who is a hand full. He keeps me on my toes, often. (I kind use him as my excuse to go outside and play, when he is good) I have had the kids Since April 1st. It has been a busy roller coaster with these kids. As far as we know right now we have them til August 24th, could be longer. They (hopefully) in time will go back to their mom when she cleans up her act and does all her court ordered things. It is always our goal for reunification with the parents. When the time is right. For some of you, you remember when I took custody of my sisters kids for 6 months. It is just my blood to help out where I can, I still don't have any kids of my own.

We are looking into adoption of a newborn, in the state of NJ it can take anywhere from 2 months to 12 months. But can cost a pretty penny. I am working on paying my loan off I took for the house, and then reapply for my loan for adoption, hopefully with in the next few years we will adopt. Until then We are enjoying being foster parents and enjoying taking our vacations.

OK now the sad part ... I guarantee while I write this I will cry, as it is still very hard to talk about. On May 5, 2011 we lost my mom. She had a sever heart attack, and never came out of comma and was declared brain dead. as we were making the decision not to make her suffer anymore, she took her last breath on her own and passed away. Some know that my mom and I were not seeing eye to eye, as she had a problem with me getting custody of my sisters kids. And not her, and she swears I did wrong in doing so, that and my sister made a lot of problems between my mom and I by telling aw-full lies. We barely talked. When everything happened with my mom, I ran right to her. I was there from the time she was taken to the local hospital to her being transferred to the hospital the specializes in cardiac care. I was with her and my dad the whole time. Just wanting her to wake and tell me to go away and leave her alone. all I wanted was her to wake and yell at me ... My mom held on for a week, the day she passed I was able to talk to her, the last thing I told her was I loved her so much and I'm sorry for whatever happened. (AND NOW MY TEARS START..) It wasn't 5 minutes later my mom passed. Dad looked at me and said she was witting for you. All she ever wanted was me to apologize. The next few days were full of tears, and family times. My uncle and aunt (who I haven't seen in 10 yrs) flew out from Texas my grandparents came up from Florida. And everyone was in shock by my amazing weight loss. At my mom's services her friend had no clue who I was, I heard her ask my dad "is that Missy" I looked at her and said yes its me, She was amazed how much I lost. I will admit I stopped taking care of myself for a bit when my mom passed, I gained 3 pounds, It scared me enough to work them back off and straighten myself out.

OK, I went and splashed water on my face and dried up the tears, my weekend has been filled with crying, as I think about my mom A LOT, now a days. Monday (June 13th) was my mom & dads wedding anniversary, 30 yrs. I hate to see my dad hurt so bad, but just so lost on how to help him. In going thru my moms stuff she had a timeshare given to her from my grand-pop (her dad) and she never really used it, my dad always paid on it, but I think they may have used it once or twice, I was talking to him about a timeshare, and he gave me my mom's time share. It is in Florida and we can transfer it. It also came with 3 weeks to use. My family is taking one week abd transferring it to NC to see my grandma ( my moms mom) I took one week and transferred it to Vegas, which left a week floating, maybe a 2 week vacation next year (woo hoo) Look out Florida, lol. But it will be a great memory of my mom & grandpa, while relaxing away from home.

I'm sorry if I made anyone cry, you are all a family to me, and I fell very comfortable talking to you all.
Hope this post find everyone in good health,
Have a safe & happy summer, working on summer plans now. Beach, amusement park, fishing, running around playing sports.

Melissa, it is so great to see you here and see you posting once again. You are doing wonderfully with the weight loss and you should be very proud! I am so so so very sorry about the loss of your mother. I know it must have been so very difficult for you, especially given the situation just prior to it happening. BIG HUGSSSSSS coming at you girl. My heart is with you. I am glad you got back to taking care of your wls needs. no matter what ever happens, you deserve and need to take good care of you.
Enjoy the time share and enjoy the summer. Stay in touch lady!

I am glad you stopped by to share Melissa.  So sorry about the family issues you had to deal with and your mother's passing.  Congrats on successful foster parenting and your amazing weight loss.  Sending hugs of friendship your way.

Best of luck in the pregnancy/adoption plan.  You never know when things will turn your way.  Keep heading toward your vision.  Hugs