im going crazy

the hormones are raging and causing me to have such mood swings.  I hate it because I feel like I have no control.  I feel like I did right b4 I had my nervous breakdown about 10 years ago.  I hate not feeling great like I have been since my surgery in Jan.  These moods swings are causing me to have nightmares, sleep less, have no desire to eat, feel so tired, and even beginning to withdraw away from my family.
Worked on a different floor this weekend and everyone was paying me compliments out the ass.  You would think that this would make me feel good.. right!  WRONG.  All I kept thinking is OMG how bad did I look before.  I was also cranjky and easily irritated this weekend.  Woke up today feeling the same wa.  I am craving attention, but yet want to be left alone at the same time.

Today I had a nice good cry.  Felt bad about crying. Felt weak.  Talked with fiance about how I am feeling.  I am scared that hes gonna think I am so nutzo and not want to stick around (its happened in the past with another guy).  I did however feel some better after the cry and the talk.  Got motivated to take the dog and go for a short walk outside.

I think that I am gonna increase my Lexapro dose, call the pyschologist tomorrow to talk or schedule an appt to talk.  Gonna ask for something for anxiety

Sweetie, I am soooo sorry that this is getting worse instead of better. I know how it is to want people to live me alone and at the same time have someone there to hold me and let me know everything is going to be okay. I wish I could be there with you right now. Keep posting. We all care about you and believe there is a doctor or someone that is going to get you to a much better place,  (((((HUGS)))))    Mag  

Please keep us posted.  I understand about the comments, it is nice but too much sometimes.  Call your doctor and maybe consider talking to someone?  I am sure that this is a common problem.  Take care of yourself and take it slow.  One minute at a time is sometimes all I can do. 

thank you.  I am waiting for a call back from the psychologist.  I plan to go talk to someone.  Will see what he suggests.  I definitely need to get meds adjusted or changed (since I have been on the same antidepressant for 6 years).  Sometimes they lose their effect.

I am so sorry your going through this. You are not alone, alot of us have had mood swings and anger outbursts. I just kept apologizing to my family when I was in a "normal" state of mind. I am glad that your gonna talk to your psychologist.

I know things will get better for you, just keep believing in yourself

Dani

thank you.  I do feel better today.  Gonna go back to the gym on friday.  Maybe even tomorrow, just not sure how much I will be sleeping since I work tonight 11pm-7am.

Fran, know that we are here for you.  Get in to your MD asap, a change in medication dose may fix the problem.  Talk therapy too.  Your hormones are flooding your system.

Please take the dog for frequent walks, your mind may not want to, but the actuvuty is good for both of you.  Crying is a good release, I wish I could wrap my arms around you and share that this will pass.  ((((((((hugs)))))))))

i hope you feel better soon. my whole life is a big nervous breakdown to a degree. i know each of us has a lot going on and i hope you can find something to soothe you. i know sometimes sleeping can make it worse but sometimes for me it makes it better if its just a little bit of sleep. i hope you feel better soon. have you tried effexor or anything else? lexapro did weird things to me and i wasnt able too take it for long.

i hope to find you in good spirits soon. do you journal? its helped me alot and i can identify with all of your feelings. [email protected] feel free to email me anytime. i try to get on the boards but i forget.

how much weight have you lost since surgery? everything on your ticker or has that been since your 2 week liquid diet and stuff?

thank you for the support.. 

I lost about 15 pounds before surgery.. all the rest has been since surgery

i feel ur hugs..  definitely needed the cry...  guess i needed to express my feelings to someone.. my fiance was so great.  he let me talk and cry for a few minutes.. then he just said come here.. and held me why I bawled. 

Have an appt with PCP 28th couldnt get one ealier..  called psych and am waiting for a call back tomorrow.