Hey, I'm new to the group. Having trouble

 My condolences for your losses.  Being in therapy is a positive thing in your life right now and will help you work through this hard time.  It also sounds like you might be feeling some guilt over being alive when all of them are gone.  But you know something?  They are loved ones and they wouldn't want to see you suffer.  You are worth it.  You do deserve a happier, healthier life and for all of your dreams to come true.  You're not insane.  It's going to be okay.  Keep working hard and keep going to therapy.  From the bottom there is only one way you can go.  Take care.  [[[Hugs]]]

{{{HUGS}}} to you, too, sweet Jane.  You nailed it right on the head.  I'm struggling with so much survivor's guilt.  I feel like I'm drowning.  I struggle with feeling like I'm worthy of having a happy, healthy life in the shadow of all the loved ones I've lost.  I think of the major slide I had as the losses began to happen last year and I lost track of myself and all of the weight I lost.  So much soothing with food.  I ate myself into a dark, deep hole and I'm struggling to climb out.  I'm trying, Jane.  Tink has been sending me these great handouts and reminding me to believe in myself.  I can't thank you and the other gals enough for reaching out to me.  I'm so amazed and inspired.  Your weight loss is incredible.  I hope I make it to where you are someday.  Thank you for being here