Update 12/21/2010

It has officially been 64 days since RNY surgery on 10/18/2010.  I have lost a total of 47lbs.  I wish I could say that I am happy with it.  I am happy but I really feel that I should be losing more than this.  For the month of December alone I have only lost 11 lbs. 

I must say that I know why or must take responsibility for this.  I have not exercised and rarely have protein shakes.  I try to get my protein in with eating meat and am limited to chicken at that but sometimes a small, small, small bit of ground beef or turkey.  Don't really care for eggs much any more.  I eat Greek yogurt with honey but cant eat an entire container.  I am sure that I do not get enough water either.  I feel so full so fast.  Eating is no longer pleasurable and I find myself waiting for hours to pass so that I can eat a few more bites.

I want to do more I really do.  Main culprit is myself next is the winter weather followed by personal family problems then financial issues.  It leaves me just sitting at times waiting for the day to end so that I am able to get up and do it again the next day.  Now my daughter is out of school for an entire month.  Emotionally this is not a good thing right now.  I do try to engage with her but mostly I want her to sit down and be silent.  No way this will happen with a 6 yr old and it is so not fair to her.  I am hanging in there and think that I make it sound worse than it is.  I just really want to be alone and sleep days away.  I know this is not possible so I just keep going.

I am almost down to 250 lbs and then it is treadmill time.  I have not bought any new clothes and now nothing fits.  Pants are a goner unless they have drawstrings.  Tops are sloppy looking but I don't want to spend money on something I cant wear more than a month or 2.  I think I should buy some sweats maybe.

All I ask is that someone prays for me.  I really do need them at this time.  I really can't ask for anything but that.  Tomorrow will be better this I know.

47 lbs in 64 days is nothing to sneeze at! When is the last time you lost that much so quickly? When was the first? You hit the nail on the head with why your progress is slowing. Try very hard to get more water and protein in at least. This first 3 months is the fastest losing time you will have. It isn't unusual for the loss to slow at times, don't let it get you down. Just know your body has been through a lot of change and trauma with this, and by not getting in enough water, it will retain liquids, and not getting enough protein and food, it will hang onto everything it can because it doesn't want to starve to death. Take at least 3 or 4 bites every 3 hours if you can't do more. At least this helps the body feel more sure food is coming regularly.

I am so sorry you are struggling. I do hope it gets better for you. I think it will, but depression isn't unusual while losing weight, as hormones and chemicals are being relaeased as the fat cells are, and we experience the effect of them. Please be kind to yourself. If this means taking a nice long nap, do it if you can. just be kind to you.

Keeping you in my heart thoughts and prayers! Let me know if I can help in some way.
Hugs! BIG HUGS!