Mini-Update

Surgery is still on for the 22nd, though I'm personally feeling a little antsy about whether or not it will get approved.  I'm supposed to find out by the eighth so there is still time.  I should probably just be patient.

I'm making progress in my therapy sessions with my doctor.  I'm learning things about myself that I've chosen to ignore for many years and honestly I'm starting to feel like a moody teenager.

I'm busting my butt off trying to have my monthly projects done by November 15th.  I have to leave a court report draft and finish all of my home visits.  I also have a goal of closing out four cases before I go as a Christmas present to myself.  But we will see.  Tommorow I'm working until 9PMish to get all this stuff done as quickly as possible.

I am feeling excited but crazy and scared at the same time.  It's hard to describe.

Hope all is well.

Jane,

Just take a deep breath.  You will be fine.  It sounds like you have enough work to keep you occupied until your surgery and the time will come quicker than than you think.

Every feeling you described is totally normal.  This is a big decision but I have only heard of one person from another group I belong to say if she could take it back she would.  Not me; it was the best thing I ever did for myself.

Colleen

Thank you for your reassuring words Colleen. I find that without this group I would feel so alone. My friends and family are being very supportive at this point but there is something about hearing it from someone who's gone through it that feels very warm and nurturing. I appreciate it.

Jane, anyday now that approval will be yours.  Wishing you luck in getting everything accomplished you need to prior to surgery. I agree with colleen, keeping busy will help the time go by faster.;

Now me, I would do my RNY again in a heart beat if it were needed still. I really wasn't too afraid either, as I figured the dangers of my obesity were much greater than the risks of the surgery. Told my hubby I'd rather die trying than to die a slow lonely painful way as obesity gradually claimed more and more of my life. BUT thats me..

If you have faith in your surgeon and in your higher power... you are well prepared.

Any of us who has been through this know just that feeling that you are trying to describe... lol. It is one in its own for sure.

Take care and let us know on final insurance approval

Having a case of nerves at this stage of the process is completely normal Jane.  I see that you have things planned out, good to have goals. 

You are probably feeling a bit of the hormones coming into your circulation from your pre-op loss.  There are years worth of hormones trapped in the fat cells.  As these fat cells empty, they release the stored hormones.  Ane this can mean some of the moodiness, like adolescence.  Great to keep yourself busy,  Keep us up to date on everything.  Here to walk this wonderful adventure with you.  Hugs