Ugh.... Sorry for the rant in advance!

Forewarning I am upset and I am being a downer... just had to rant... rawr.

Things are not amazing right now!! Originally my insurance said I was covered and I just go in like a normal doctor appointment and now when I was suppose to have surgery the 21st they decide I am no longer covered... so now I have to fight them.... this sucks!
Just another thing that is not working... I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO THE THINGS I LOVE AGAIN!!!  Fish, Camp, Run, Swim, Hike, Rock Climb! If I dont get out of this house soon I will loose my mind... I dont wnat to be a cow anymore!
OH to make matters better my x-husband sent a letter to my whole family explaining he left me because he couldnt bare seeing me anymore and that was back when i was skinny! And he said I was fat... no wonder he hates me now.
OH and my mom kicked me out of her life because she said she cant stand to see me anymore either...
LIFE BLOWS!

Ouch that SUCKS !!!!

BUT no matter how bad things are, there is always hope, its around that next corner, keep going and you will get to it !!!

Good luck

Thanks you are incredibly sweet!!

Your dr. office should fight the insurance company for you.
When I was up for approval, they told me not to worry that if I was reject they would find out why and fight the insurance if they had to.

Talk to your doc.

The other stuff.. to H*** with em'.  It's your life not theirs don't let their attitudes control you.

My mom did the samething to me for a while.. Oh well.. her loss, yes it hurts, yes it sucks, but you can't control their attitudes and actions, only yours.

Good Luck

Ohhhhhhhh honey. I am soooo sorry you are going through all of this. First.. the insurance thing. Did they say WHY they changed thier minds on this? It may be a simple thing that can be taken care of easily, but if not, fight them to no end! Many times insurance companies will do this just to try to get out or paying out the money, hoping you will just give uip...so DO NOT! Talk to your surgeons office, ask them what they were told and how they plan to step up for you in this as well!

I so understand wanting to live your life again. Merely existing is no fun and quite miserable. i know this personally. Don't give up, no matter what! YOU are worth fighting for what you need.

Now... (my rant time...in your behalf of course)...These people who are / were supposed to love you unconditionally do not know the first thing about what love really is I am guessing. Very judgemental and cold hearted! Ya know, when i was a teenager, I weighed 135 lbs. I was solid muscle! I have a big bone sructure so never loked like Barbie.. but I was slender and strong. My mother was constantly criticizing me. Telling me how fat I was. How ugly, how stupid you name it. I was always condemned and criticized. Was I ever encouraged, supported, loved? NOPE. I finally had to come to tyerms with the fact that my mother was whop and how she was, and no matter how hard I tried to please her (and oh did I ever try!) I never would or could. Once i came to terms with that (long after I truly did become obese), I had to sperate myself from her especially emotionally. I had wished I could have done this years earlier..it would have spared me so much grief and pain and abuse from her. And alot of issues i still work on til this day.

Please always know you are a special and a lovely person. You need NO ONES approval. Those who truly love and care for you will do so without conditions. Those who can't love and accept you for the wonderfully unique person you are...well it may be time to put some space in between them and you. Realize that the issues are thiers.. not yours!  It may be they are treating you exactly as they have been treated in the past, and do not know how to treat people any differently. It's cruel and cold, and I hurt for you as I read your post, as I KNOW how painful this is.

Now.. it is time to leave the responsibility for thier actions on them, and release it from you. Start focusing on you and your life. Start giving yourself the acceptance and love you deserve. Please don't do what I did and wait so late in life to learn to do this.

PLEASE always know that you are accepted and loved and cared for here. I promise you that! My heart is so with you. Big HUGSSSSS coming your way. I am so sorry for all of the pain and disappointment you are having to face.

Wow, what a load your are dealing with.  First of all, you are a great person, those around you are not so great at this time.  Others can do a number on our internal thoughts.  Know thay you are special and lovable.  We are here to walk this adventure by your side and be your sounding board and support system. 

Start each and every day telling your self positive things, working towards optimum health.

Fight for your surgery, distance yourself temporarily from those not offering support and come lean on us all the time.  Sending hugs from MN to you.  Kathy

sounds like your ex is in the right position, an ex. who needs him.  as far as your mom, wow, that really sucks.  i hurt for you.  i know it is hard, but try and let go of her. u don't need negative folks like them in your life.


good luck on the insurance issue. hope it turns out ok.  hang in there and just keep putting one foot in front of the other.  i care. vick

Too bad we live in such a society that looks and being skinny is the only acceptable way of looking.  Hang in there.  I hope you're doing this surgery for you and not others.  I had mine (RYN) for my health, the looks is a nice byproduct.

Hope you get your insurance going for you so you can have the surgery.  Take care.

I agree with Patrece about your mom & husband.  You will receive the support and love you so deserve here at OH.  I know I have.  Feel free to rant/rave any time. We're here for you

KerBear I'm so sorry!  Our mothers have the power to decimate us with something as simple as a look.  They have so much power over us!  In many cases taht is great, but in our case, not so much.  One thing that has helped me so much is to make that physical and emotional break with her.  Eventually I started talking to her again, but on my terms not hers.  My mom is a master manipulator and if she can't get to me by phone she'll leave letters on my doorstep.  I had such a hard time resisting reading what she had writtenfor a long time.  Thanks to my counselor, I now immediately throw the letters away and delete the phone messages before I listen to them.  It hasn't changed her, but I've changed the way I handle her.  There is still the occasional "break in" when my defenses are down and where she finds a way to get to me.  In those cases I cry and then put one foot in front of the other and move on.  I have so much more to be thankful for, with the number one reason to be thankful that I'm not like her!  It is so hard to live without the support and compassion of our mothers, but we just have to accept this fact and learn to love ourselves for who we are.  You are a great person and no one can take that away from you unless you let them.  As far as your ex goes, I think you are sooooo much better off without him.  As Steve Matin said in one of his movies "F--- him and feed him fish heads"!  True love is blind when it comes to the physical.  Your exes problem isn't you, it is him!  You deserve someone who loves you for who you are.  Don't settle for anything less.  You are beautiful!