Grumpy

Im really grumpy today already.  I'll try not to do too much venting.

My big problem of the day is QVC.  I ordered a capri outfit from them that was on "easy pay."  They took the money out 2 days early and it bounced.  It looks like the bank covered it but it leaves me overdrawn by $1.84, which I'm pretty sure they are going to charge me $35 for.  The thing that really gets me is that I only got to wear it one time and it's too big.  I can take in the pants realitively easily and still get some use from them but I sure didn't need an extra $35 buck to pay to anybody right now.  Oh well, lesson learned; no more easy pay regardless of how cute the outfit is.

I had my first jewelry class yesterday and it went really well.  The student was very nice and it was just her and I and we had fun.  I'm not going to make a fortune doing these classes but I'm getting instructions for different kinds of jewelry that I've never made before so that's a good thing.  I taught her how to make a necklace,  bracelet and earring, all matching.  She was very happy with her outcome; they came out really nice.  I don't have more classes scheduled right now and I knew going into this thing that jewelry making wasn't the most popular class but it will get me out of the house for a while.

My weight keeps playing games again; going anywhere from 193 to 197.  At least I haven't seen 200.  I have also been constipated and took something last night; that should help in the next 24 hours or so.

Really working on getting my fluids and protein in.  But I have been eating my protein and I think I'm going back to shakes.  My surgeon says he doesn't care either way, just get the protein.

I should have my disability check in the next day or 2 and it's time to make a decision about what companies I'm going to use for my website and webhosting.  I think I'm going to go with the company that has already allowed me to build the site and then purchase the domain name from elsewhere.  I wish I was smarter about this stuff.  I am going to use PayPal.  I thought they were a little pricey but there is not monthly fee; you only pay them if they collect money for you on a sale.  I have to sit and maybe rethink my pricing a little bit; I don't want to price myself out of business.

I am having a confidence problem with starting this company but then I keep thinking if I can take off almost 90 pounds, I can do anything.  The tools I have to make the company work are a little different than the tools I used to lose the weight but I can do this.  I've got a lot of ideas and now it's time to start working out the details.  Maybe if I focus on this alot it will keep me from wanting to eat.

A very dear friend of mine makes rosaries for the church.  They aren't cheap but they are semi-precious stone and she is covering her costs, making a donation to the church and making  a small profit for herself.  She is doing really well.  I've already offered her free space on my website to advertize as I have for others.  If anybody wants to advertize anything, let me know.  I have unlimited pages and not looking to make a profit for advertizing off of my Bariatric Buddies.

I'm in desperate need of a "Colleen" day but it isn't going to be today; I have to take my mom to the doctors.

Well I guess I'm done grumbling now.  Despite the fact that I'm less than happy, I'm grateful to have a roof over my head, food in the cupboards, a car that runs, a man who loves me and a mom to take care of.  Oh yeah; very grateful for COFFEE!!!!!!


Colleen

Colleen,
Don't automatically accept the overdraft fee. Call your bank (not the local branch, but the toll free number), explain what happened and ask them to refund the fee. I worked at a national bank for years and most customer service reps will refund in a case like this ($1.84!!!) as long as you haven't had another overdraft already in the last few months.

I'd love to take your jewelry class if that were possible. As far as your website and your business - you're starting something brand new to you and you'll learn alot as you go along. That means what to do and what NOT to do, LOL. I like paypal. I greatly admire you for being able to build your own website, that is not an easy task at all.

Print out that last paragraph you wrote and read it over and over every time things start closing in on you. We all have plenty of blessings to be thankful for when stop to count them.

Hugs,
Rhonda

I expected more venting, and simply surprised to see all the upbeat comments.  Reread your note, you are making great strides in self confidence.  I see the changes over the last few days. 

Make a list of things you are thankful for.  Next time you need to vent, come on back and do so.  Please read the list before you do, take 5-10 deep cleansing breaths and start to type.  I find this makes a great difference in my outlook on life. 

You are doing amazing things.  I could not go and lead a class, just not in it for me.  Keep up the great work, congrats on the successful losing.  Nice to have loser friends like you Colleen.  Hugs