Update ....

Hello my dear friends, yes friends I may not know any of you but you are all friends of mine, I find my self telling my hubby about this site, and I tell them my friend "so and so" Just passed another goal. And he laughs ... so hello friends

Just thought Id stop in for an update, life is busy. It has its ups and downs.

Monday (5/10) Went to the doctor in sever abdominal pain. Talked to the doctor sounds like I'll be adding a 9th surgery to my list soon. I have sever endometriosis, and sadly it will end with an early age hysterectomy. Not looking forward to it, hoping they can save everything again, however the amount of pain I am in, doesn't look good for me. I go may 18th for an ultra sound, if they see anything on my ovaries I'll be set up for surgery, if not we will try pain management first, and put surgery on the back burner, but the amount of pain I am in looks like surgery is coming up  .. Well during that appointment I had a nice wow moment, the doctor barely recognized me, he said you've changed. Looks at me .. your hair .. its shorter and different color, I said yup. He goes there is something else ... I said I dropped about 70 lbs. he goes wow!!. I see the girls in the office look at me like I know you but something is different. LOL .. I love it ... I cant say it enough! I am sooooo glad I took this road.

Yesterday my wonderful husband and I celebrated 5 years of marriage. We have been to hell and back. 3 miscarriages and 8 surgeries later. Here I am. I decided to start the day by weighing myself. I was so excited to see another goal passed... 190 lbs .. OMG OMG OMG OMG ... I am so happy!!!!!!!!! It was a very good feeling. We had to go see a counselor, not something I really wanted to do but needed for the embryo adoption. Quick explication, I did 2 IVF cycles. 1 frozen embryo cycle, I have 5 embryos frozen in a clinical freezer and after lots of thought Jeff and I decided to give them up for adoption, as we are writing a new chapter in our live and we are looking to adopt our children. Long story short, went through an adoption clinic and found a match to a wonderful woman in Cali. Her doctor stated I needed to have at least one session of counseling. Being the counselor is only in on Tuesdays and Thursdays and I HAD to get this done, we went in yesterday our anniversary. It was hard to sit there and talk about it, but it was nice too. I felt better after leaving her office, kinda wished I did it sooner then now. After that we went out for a quick lunch, came home and relaxed. Around 6ish went to dinner ( Red Lobster) one of my favorite places. Although for whatever reason I wasn't thinking about my little pouch. I ate one of their oh so yummy rolls. I knew right after I ate it I was wrong for eating it. My salad came out, thinking to myself I just filled up in a roll, ill wait for my dinner to come out eat salad and dinner at the same time. Yea, NO ... I got to picking at that, then Jeff ordered appetizer calamari MY FAVORITE THING. Of course I had a bit of that too. and stopped, I was full I knew it. Wasn't in pain but knew I ate to much i was full. Then here comes dinner. The waiter put the plate down in front of me and I laughed, and felt awful I asked him for a box. He looked at me upset and asked if he did something wrong, I told him no service was wonderful. I just can not eat that right now I am way to full and that Id like to take it home for lunch. He again asked was everything ok, now I felt awful I offended to poor guy and he did nothing wrong. Here I found my self explaining to him that I have a small stomach and I filled it up to fast. He seemed ok with it, but still thinks I was upset ... I felt so bad, didn't mean to insult him. After dinner we decided to see a movie, (the back up plan with Jennifer Lopez) very good movie, half way through it i started thinking I shouldn't be watching this, BUT it was funny. I laughed through it.

Today i am running around like crazy trying to get last minute things set up for the fire company's fundraiser dinner tomorrow night (MMM all you can eat snow crab and pasta dinner) YEA I refused to pay for a ticket. I am just gonna steal of my hubby's plate. I maybe will get one or two legs and few bits of salad and Ill be full. Waste of money for me. But the guys seem to be ok with that. I did get a few minutes to myself and went with my mom and sister to get our nails done. Something I do for myself every 2 weeks. I have for the last 2 years, figured if every 2 weeks the hubby buys his chew tobacco I can get my nails done, it costs the same. Next time will be a pedicure with purchase of a new toe ring, and nice manicure and my eye brows waxed. Sounds like a good day to be spoiled for me, hahahaha ...

Well I gotta run to the station make the garlic bread, then come home and make Jello punch cake.. I tried to find sugar free or reduced sugar cake, but the supermarket I went to didn't carry yellow cake that way, just chocolate and I cant use that for the cake. So I'll leave myself out and make it for the rest.

Hope everyone is having a good day.
~ Miss

~Wow just went through to read what I wrote, didn't realize I wrote so much.. got a long one from me today :-) had a lot I wanted to tell everyone.

I get wordy myself some days Miss.  Tis alright.  I consider everyone here my friend and family too.  Don't know what I would do without my buddy family.  Write as much and as often as you need, the more the better.

I have had waitresses give me a funny look too, especially when I ask for the togo box to be delivered with the meal.  Dennis and I eat at one of the local restaurants often enough that the box request doesn't phase them anymore.  I always feel better when there is not the volume of food on the plate when I start eating.  So I box up over half before tasting a morsel. 

Hey Miss! We are your friends! You are ours too. I always tell Paul I am gonna go check on my buddies!
You have alot gong on girl. Please take good care of yourself. Wishing you the best possible outcome with your endometriosis. It would be good if they can spare the ovaries, but not at the expense of the pain youare in. I too have to go to the girls doctor. been having terrible period like cramps, but not on it. And when i am it is so heavy and coming every coupleof weeks. These severe cramps definately got my attention, even tho I kept putting this off after the frequent  and heavy cycles. I take a lot of misery before i eve break down and go to a doctor. But ha**** that point that I know I must have things checked out.

You and your husband have my congrats and best wishes for the next 5 years and then some! You guys gave a woman a beautiful gift with the embryo. Bless your hearts. I hope you have peace and joy in your decision.

Congrats on the awesome weight loss youhave experienced. it is so kewl when people look at you like.. "now who is that... I know i know them". My psych doc' and his staff do that at every appt I go to, and have to go every 3 months for medication management. I haven't even lost that much since the time before and still got the same blank look this last time.. I just said "Chris.. will you ever know who I am again?" then it clicked for her..
keep up the great work..
Hugs to you! Thanks for sharing so much!

Wow, Melissa, you look great! You have done so well. Be proud of all you have accomplished.

I'm sorry about the endometriosis. Hope you can skip the surgery. I also hope adoption works out well for you both. I know several families who have gone that route and things worked out beautifully for them all.

Happy Anniversary and I hope you have many to come!