I LOVE THE NEW ME

Hello all

Sorry I have been MIA .. I have worked so much the last few weeks, I am so glad to have the next 8 days off (FINALLY) even if they are gonna be a busy 8 days off but I don't have to deal with work.

I come and look once in a while, but never find time to sit down and write, so I got some down time today thought I'd update everyone.

I am loving my life as a skinnier person. I am now 65 or so lbs down. And happy as ever, of course I hope I loose more weight. I am about 45 lbs off from my goal (150lbs) the doctor probably wants me down more, but I will be happy at 150.

The last few days I have been in planning mood. In 17 days is my 5 year wedding anniversary. For the first time ever I am doing something I would never in my past life thought of doing. I am sitting down Thursday morning for a photo shoot .. some basic nice pictures and yes some risque pictures. Very tasteful!!! Nothing incriminating. I'm scared out of my mind that I am doing this, but so excited that I cant sit still. He doesn't know I am doing this, its a surprise but there have been times I so bad want to tell him what I am planning. He will know soon, and I cant wait to see the look on his face. Now why did I tell you all this? Today I had a wow moment, went to Wal*Mart to find a few shirts to wear for pictures (since I have nothing that fits me) and I picked up a few shirts .. reached for the bigger sizes (always had to buy bigger then what I was, so it fit me right) Well i stopped myself picked up two xl shirts and tried them on, I looked in the mirror and almost yelled "WHO IS THAT GIRL" they looked so good, and felt so good to see myself. I am so glad I took this road in my life, I LOVE WHO I AM. Been a long time since I said that about myself.

Tomorrow I'm going with one of my bypass buddies to get our hair done, 'I've lost 65lbs I want a drastic change to my hair. Cut and color. We will see (and yes pictures will be posted soon) Wednesday I am getting nails done. It is a week of pampering, figured I worked hard for the money might as well spoil myself. :-)

Update on my little niece, sadly she doesn't live with us anymore, my sister took her back. I sure hope she got her head on straight. The next time I have to raise her child I will have to be mean and take it to the courts and file for temporary custody. I cant do this anymore. I love my sister, and I love her kids, but I cant bounce like this anymore, the kids are always welcomed to spend the weekend here, but no more living like that baby did. My heart went from being an aunt to being a mom, and everyone says I cant put myself through the stress anymore. it took a few days, I miss her so bad, but I am ok that I am the aunt and she is always welcomed to come visit. We are talking about adoption this summer. We are suppose to be moving into a house sometime this summer, once we are settled in there we are going to file for adoption. :-)

Well i feel like I am babbling on .. you all are like a second family to me, feel like I can just release everything going on in my mind here. And no one will judge me here. I hope everyone has a good week. When I am home I will check back see who everything is going.

take care all ..
Miss

First off.. Congrats on the new size.. isn't it exciting!
2nd. I know how it feels to swing from aunt to mom to aunt...etc.

I have done this 2 times with one of my sister's children and it is very difficult.  After building them up, loving them, working on school work, self esteem issues.. not to mention clothes, daily "mom" chores etc...  If you need an ear.. I am here.  Just leave me a email and I will respond.

 I finally had to tell my sister.. No More..  I couldn't handle the back and forth and emotional issues that came along with it.

Miss, you sound so happy.  Can't wait to get a peek at your photo shoot pics.  Have fun with the pamper time this week.  Sounds like your weight loss is coming along nicely.  Congratulations. 

So sorry that your niece had to bounce back and forth.  Hard to share your heart and then lose it too.

Take care during your pamper me time.  Happy anniversary.  Hugs

Congrats on both the size reduction and the anniversay oh yes...and the new found courage to take those sexy photo's You go girl!!! You hubby will love em!  I look forward to seeing your progress in the photo's you decide to share with us.
Enjoy your pampering... I need to take a day and hit a spa or something and just have the works done! I have never even had a pedicure by anyone but myself..lol.

Sorry this reply is so short, but its getting loate and my poor hubby is starving!
Please stay in touch as you can! love hearing from you and love how positive and happy you are! such an inspiration to many!