Too early on Sunday morning

Good very early AM to all.  I've been up since 4 and couldn't go back to sleep.  This may be too much info but I have been severly constipated for the last couple of days and have not been having much fun.  I took something late yesterday afternoon and am doing much better, although I don't want to be too far from a bathroom today.

Hubby took me shopping yesterday and bought me new bras and underwear.  It was so cool to be able to buy the "sexy" stuff with only 2 hooks in the back.  I have also had to get rid of most of my underwear as I am down two sizes there.

I thought my husband moved the scale but he didn't and damn if I wasn't on there again this morning.  At least I'm down from yesterday but I'm still going to remind him to get that scale out of my sight for right now.

I had put on my "bucket" list that Patrece posted the other day and while the weight loss is in progress(standstill or not) I am also working on another of those things which is my own jewelry and sewing business.  I have enough stuff stashed to get a pretty good start on a jewelry collection and with my disability income I can do a little stocking up. I bought business cards that I can design and print out on the computer so I am slowly but surely rolling here.  I am going to keep the sewing down to minor alterations and small quilted gift items; things that I dont' have to charge an arm and a leg for to make a few bucks on.

I keep saying all these things and am doing them but I'm also terrified I'm wasting my time and money, expecially money.  I have always had a confidence problem.  My stomach turns over everytime I think about the bypass surgery.  I did it but will I be successful at it?  Same for the business and just about anything else I do.  I just kind of keep rolling along and what will be will be.

I will start going back to the gym this week; I stayed away due to my hospital visit.  I have 4 bathing suits now with another on the way and I don't want them to go to waste.  I love the water aerobics and need the exercise.  I bough****er aerobics gloves that give you more water resisitance which not only helps burn calories but helps tone your arms.

Today we have to move ass much of the furniture as we can because the new carpeting is coming tomorrow.  I'm excited about the carpeting but am not looking forward to having the place torn apart.  We are slowly but surely getting some things done around here.  My mom's room was just carpeted last week and she was so excited that I was buying her carpeting, she went and bought a new bedroom set.  We had a new roof put on the house yesterday and now the new carpeting for the living room.  After that, it's my turn; I get my office redecorated.  The only thing I'm bummed out about is that I had some fabric that I bought at Walmart to make curtains with for a different place  but I don't have enough to make the curtains for this room.  I either have to pick completely new fabric or design the curtains by incorporating a solid color into them.  We'll see; I don't know if I have that much ambition.

Well I guess it's time for me to shut up now.  I hope you have a great day.

Colleen

Colleen,
Boy can I Identify with the lack of faith to make a business work. I have been working on getting mine going for a long time now, but seems something (lack of faith in me) keeps slowing me down and holding me back. Somehow we have to learn to break past that barrier and trust in ourselves and our abilities.

So glad to hear you are getting your new carpeting. It will make such a difference. Sounds like things are coming together nicely for you!

Enjoy those new swim suits and the water aerobics. I need to get back to doing that too.. just seems something always comes along and changes my plans.. I have to start telling people that I have plans and they will have to wait until I am done.

Have a great Sunday!
Love and hugs!

I can identify with the lack of self confidence to start a business too, thought many times about starting a quilting business.  I love to play with fabric.  Night shift work, with pay, gets in the way.  Need the insurance and security of a steady paycheck.  I do the quilting as a hobby and thouroughly enjoy myself with the hobby.

Box up your scale, wrap it in pretty paper and sta**** away for a while.  Then once a week or every 2 weeks open your "present" and see the numbers go down.  Look at this as a treat instead of an obsession.

Cool to be able to do the sexy undies, does your hubby appreciate them?  Sounds like furniture moving is in store for your day, better you than me.  Still ill myself and sleeping away the day.  MD tomorrow am, getting dressed and going outside, what a thought.... I get tired just thinking about it.  Off for another nap.  Have a great rest of the weekend.  Hugs

Oh wow, that sounds so exciting.  You have so much on your plate!  I think that you have to take your victories, like the new undies, and tuck them into your self confidence boosters box in your head.  Starting out in a new business is always a risky endeavor, and you could possibly be the next big thing.  But you will never know if you don't try.  I say take it slow, but follow your heart.  At least if it doesn't go so well, you can say you had the guts to try.  Don't let yourself have moments to waste on regrets.