My Thursday babbling

Had a pretty good day today.  We took the motorcycle to our local IKEA store and bummed around there for awhile and bought some stuff I didn't really need.

The 5 pounds I gained is coming off; I was down to 203 this morning.  I can't figure out where they came from because I haven't really been eating that much and am getting my protein in.  Oh well; I'll hit Onderland sooner or later.

I had a talk with my PCP the other day and he say my goal weight is too low.   I have been aiming for 145; he thinks somewhere between 160 and 180.  I will definitely go for 160. My mom and I went to bingo the other day and it was pretty cool having all the workers tell me how great I look and I even had to tell one of the guys I was spoken for.  My ego needed that desperately.

This week is going to be a little weird because hubby is on vacation which means I won't get a lot done.  We are having a new roof put on the house tomorrow so that will give me some time to get some chores in while he "supervises" the roofers.  They will probably be ready to kill him by the time they're done LOL!

I have to go for a psych eval tonight for my disability claim.  Although the primary reason I can't work is physical, I was advised to hit them with everything whi*****ludes bipolar, depression, anxiety attacks and ADD. Most of my symptoms are under control with medication and I'm very grateful for that.  I don't talk too much about that stuff because there is still a stigma attached to most mental health issues but in my case I a) trust the people here not to be judgemental and b) some of it does tie in with my eating issues.  Right now I'm on the meds only program but I have a feeling she is going to suggest therapy.  In a way I hope she does. I really feel like I need to be in therapy with someone who understands eating disorders.  That was one of the stipulations that the psychologist made in order for me to have surgery but the therapist I was seeing said I didn't need therapy.  Sometimes I feel like I'm at the mercy of people who don't know what the hell they are doing.  Maybe this meeting will be productive.

Well that's another day in the life of me.  I hope you all have a good evening.

Colleen

that's quite a day Colleen.  From one Harley Girl to another, can't wait until I can have this surgery, get to onederland and buy some leathers that don't take a whole herd of cows to make.
right now, I am not comfortable riding, my weight is a lot up front , although DH, says he'll miss his cushioned seat back.  LOL.

I really want to go to our local IKEA and take a good walk round as soon as walking gets better.  Only went once and that was a couple of years ago.  

Have fun with DH being on vacation.  We don't get a whole lot done when we are both home, but I'd rather have him home than not.   I am sure your the same. 

Have a great Friday and a great weekend.

Hey gal.. sometimes we have to stand up for what we know is right for us. You know better than anyone if you feel you need therapy for food issues. Now its just finding a good therapist to work with. And I hear you on the mental health issues. You'd think the stigma would be so much less, as mental illness seems to be the new common place (depressive disorders, etc..). But unfortunately just as with obesity, there are always those who will never "get it" no matter what, and hastily and wrongfully judge us because of it. I don't think you ever need worry about that here. So many of us face the emotional issues. I know I for one have struggled with clinical depression for any years.. thank goodness for meds. they help alot.

Sounds like your surgeon and mine are on the same page. Mine told me he didn't want to see me go lower than 170. Said with my large frame and bone structure, I wouldn't be happy any lower. Well I am at 155 and I am haapy... much happier than at 170 for sure. I had a heart to heart with him and told him i had to at least get to 154, as that would put me at a normal BMI. So he said okay... but then stop.. lol.. It is to the point where i lose very slowly and have to work hard for it. He hasn't seen me (my surgeon) since I was 168. I am not due to see him again until July.

Keep up the good work gal. Love and hugs!

Colleen, our bodies do weird things with the weight sometimes. Don't fret too much about the weight, just stick to your program and you will be fine!
As for the psych issues, I agree with you. People act all weird if the subject comes up and they don't know how to respond or act. I've suffered from clinical depression for a long time. I take meds and I've had one-to-one therapy for over a year now. My doc is so happy I'm losing weight and finally taking control of my life, he cut back my meds last week and I have a feeling we may be stopping the sessions soon too, although, to tell the truth, I'd rather keep the sessions at least until I've reached goal. It's always a relief to have someone knowledgeable to talk to, isn't it? I hope things work out for you.

Hi Colleen, I started to respond to this last evening after returning from a shopping trip and wls group session.  Found that I was so tired that the response needed to wait.  You wouldn't have been able to read through the typo's if I was to type. lol

Hope your eval went swimmingly.  Have a grand day today, HUGS