New pics posted from my trip to Virginia beach.

You gals are just too good on my ego. lol. Its funny, i look at this picture and it is like I am looking at someone else. I look in the mirror and don't "feel" like I look this thin. I have even asked a few people if the picture is just really flattering or if I really lok that thin. haha!  There is a condition called dysmorphia, where we see ourselves differently than others do, still see ourselves as bigger than we are. It is very common amoung wls patients who have lost significant weight. I never thought I would go through it, as there was a time in my life before having kids that I was thin. Weighed 20 lbs less than I do now actually, so I thought 'I won't struggle with that'. BUT I do at times, other times i see the thinner me. So odd! But ya know, when I think back to when I weighed 135, I always felt "too big" then, I think due to my large bone structure and I was very muscular too. But more than anything, I think it was because my mother always criticized me, my weight, my body, my hair, you name it.

Just goes to show the work we have ahead in our journey goes much deeper than what we eat, what we weigh, how we exercise... There's an entire emotional realm that we have to work on as well to ever fully "recover".  I truly believe we are always going to be "recovering obese", no matter how thin we ever get. Because it takes focus daily to stay on track and work through the causes and contributors to our obesity, so we never return to using food as our escape and  relapse into our old relationship with food. (Not to mention that we have to work hard to change that relationship for a very long time. Even when our body cannot accomodate all that comfort food, for many, the thoughts and feelings related to that are still there lurking in the background.