And dream interpreters out there?

OK buddy's I have had a couple of dreams in the last weeks that have me thinking that my mind is super busy while I sleep.  I can't recall the entire dreams, just bits and pieces.  I seem to have been struggling with someone or something during a few of the dreams.  This morning as I was waking up, eyes still closed, brief flashes of line drawings of faces flashed by.  White lines drawn on black paper.  All kinds of different expressions and shapes of faces.  None came into clear focus, just lasted long enough for me to recognize that it was a face, not long enough to recognize the face.  Just the expression, taunting me, tugging at my subconsciousness. 

I have been struggling with old eating habits wanting to surface again.  Working on getting in the protein and fluids, exercise is cut back temporarily due to foot pain.  Too bad we can not get by without eating.  Alcoholics and drug addicts can live just fine without their drug of choice.  I can not live just fine without my drug of choice, food, that is. 

I read a blog that Amalia wrote yesterday.  Talking of going from one tasty food to another during the day.  I want to follow the plan and get down to a 'normal' BMI.  Food is there to taunt me, tease me, beckon to me "just one bite and I will be satisfied".  I have found that just one bite of something I shouldn't be eating is not enough.  What things that I am missing in my life am I trying to substitute food for?  I would be very rich if I knew that answer.  I would be able to solve my issues that run just below my consciousness.

There is uncertainty at work the last few months.  General unrest and wondering about the future with the financial issues of work.  Stress levels are up for everyone, some dealing with it better than others.  Dennis and I work opposite weekends and do not enjoy much couple time to do things together.  I try to prepare healthy meals, he turns up his nose or questions "what is this?"  Makes me not interested in prepping the healthy things. 

Guess I need to do what is best for me and let the rest just fly by.  Time to step off this soapbox and go for a dog walk.  Catch up with everyone at chat this evening.  Do the best you can for yourself.  Hug your soul, feed your spirit, nourish your body.  I intend to do those things.  Hugs till later.

hey, Trying to give me a headache. hahaha,  Us ole women can't read the little print. hahaha   Just joking.   Take it easy.  I have alot of dreams too.  I can relate  2 the foot pain.  In January of 2009  I had surgery for heel spurs.  Since i my weight is down  I hardly have much pain now.  It will get better for you too.  Take care.

So sorry that things appeared small, on my computer appeared easy to read.  Is this better?

Diagnosed with pronation of the foot, been doing it for years and finally getting help.  All the miles of walking I have been doing since surgery have made the pronation worse.  Different shoes and orthotics are helping, slowly.  Pain varies depending on time of the day and stair climbing.

Thanks for being there for my support, makes all the difference.  Hugs

Sweetheart... I had to copy and paste this post into word, then enlarge the font to read it.. you must have some very good peepers!

Your dream is telling you that due to the unrest at work, and you difficulty with meals and food, that you need to move here with me, there's lots of RN jobs, and we can eat together... lol. Hows that for interpreting????   Those faces... well thats your extended family here in colorado, waiting for your arrival. Doesn't it all seem so clear now?

Seriously... I just don't know what to think of your dream. Maybe the faces are those of people you are yet to encounter and will have a significant impact in your life somehow.

I sure feel for you, with the struggles you are facing in the food department. We do have to find the root of what it is you are really trying to fill when turning to these foods. I want you to find peace and success in your wls journey, as much as I could want it for myself!

Maybe you could join in my my journaling call. It may help some. And after reading your post, I have found i want to expand on some things.

I love you and send you wishes of comfort without food. Somewhere in your heart and soul you are hungry for something, and cannot find it, so you turn to food. Maybe time for deep deep soul searching. Maybe its carreer related due to the unrest around there, maybe personal fulfillment, who knows.. time to start digging in a lot deeper as to whats going on insdie for you. I am here if you want to call and talk about it, or need help sorting it all out.

Kathy, I've been reading over and over the theories about obesity, especially how food is an addiction, how we need to solve the "real", "underlying" issues that drive us to overeating. I "pooh-poohed" the idea of using food for "comfort", at least for myself, because I think I've grown beyond that. Still, there had to be a reason that I can't exercise control over this sef-destructing habit - a habit I've been trying to conquer much of my life. It eluded me until now. Last night I had an epiphany, as I was writing my blog and it rang so true, I had to discuss it. For the benefit of those who didn't read my blog, let me clarify that I'm not a volume eater, but I do love food and I'm always searching for variety, for the "new" and "different" taste that will satisfy me. So I have a taste (and not just one taste, as Kathy wrote, if something is good, one bite isn't enough!) of this then I go for a taste of that and so on, and if let loose, I can keep doing it all day.
The word "variety" clicked for me. I realized that I'm opting for variety in food because I don't have much variety in my life. Being physically limited has curbed my options for adventure and change severely. I guess at some point, I started substituting adventure in real life with adventure in my taste buds! How's that for lame? LOL
The truth is that a substitute is only a substitute and can never satisfy as much as the original, the real thing. That is why a close look at what food is substituting for in our lives is so important. Kathy, you might not get rich if you knew what food is substituting for in your life, but you would certainly be able to grow a bit because of it.
The financial issues you are facing are certainly a huge stressor and so is the lack of support from your husband. Not being able to spend quality time with Dennis because of your schedules just adds to the mess. No wonder you are dreaming of struggling.
I can't get to the root of your problem, you are the only one who can do that. As for me, I need to just convince myself that this WLS voyage is enough of an adventure for now and I no longer need to look for something more, just focus on being successful in this one for now.

Hi Amalia, I just read your wonderful reply to Kathy and your blog, and I loved both of them.  What you had to say was so very true, and I do feel like I have an addiction to food also.  I wish the doc could have done some brain surgery on me , but he did'nt so I have to learn to control my impulses for the wrong foods that I continue to want and eat.  It's so hard sometimes, I know we all get frustrated with ourselves, but we just have to keep working hard towards our goals. This certainly is an adventure that we are on and I just have to get it in my head that I'm going to make it one of the most "fun" adventures of my life.  Good luck to you.       Roxie

Thank you Roxie. If I was able to help even a little bit, I have done my good deed fror the day!
Best of luck with your WL adventure!

Kathy,
I also had to copy and paste into WORD to read your post. I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Maybe the faces in your dreams are the foods that are calling to you to come eat, taunting you and tempting you. I totally get what you mean about food being your drug of choice and not being able to avoid it. That is exactly what I have always said about myself. I feel food is an addiction for me, just as much as herion, cigarettes, alcohol, etc, can be for other people.
It is very frustrating to try to fix healthy meals for your family and have them very UNappreciated. It's also very frustrating if you wind up fixing 2 separate meals, one for you, one for them (Dennis.) I say, fix what is helpful for you and if he doesn't care for it, let him fend for himself. I know that is easier said than done though. It's a shame that you have to work opposite weekends. More time together might really help you both right now. You've gone thru a lot of changes in the past months, and you're so busy so much of the time. Be good to yourself and try to make time to take care of Kathy somewhere in there while you're taking care of everyone else. Again, easier said than done, I know!

Kathy I am so sorry you are going through this.  I will be praying for you.  love ya.

Hi Kathy, I'm so sorry to her of your struggles that you are facing and I certainly hope that things turn around for you soon.  I totally agree that I feel that I'm addicted to food and my biggest goal is to try to turn my brain around to a better way of thinking about food. I struggle every day with still wanting those "wrong" foods that I love so much, it's hard, and I don't always win the battle inside of me.  The support that I have attained thru this group has been so helpful to me and I wake up wanting to learn more about this "NEW LIFE" that I'm living.  Good luck to you and may God Bless     Roxie