Good Morning - Tomorrow will be a better morning!

Good morning and happy Monday.  It's the first official day of my medical leave, and I don't feel the least bit guilty about NOT being at work!  I hope you'll allow me to ramble a bit here, because I have a lot on my mind.  

I have completed the 2-week pre-op full liquid diet (today is clear liquid), and I must say, while I did have a few rough moments all in all it was ok.  I didn't cheat - and I am PROUD of that!  Was I tempted?  Heck yeah!  But all I kept thinking was that if I cheat I am not only cheating myself but also running the risk of making my surgeon's job more difficult.  Now if anything goes wrong I will not have myself to blame!  lol  There were some comical moments; I had to go in to work one evening for a meeting, and in this room of 15 people my stomach started making these awful gurgling noises... this was day 3 of full liquids, and I guess my body was adjusting!  The people sitting nearest to me heard it, and I got a few chuckles.  I also had some moments of great temptation, but managed to walk away without eating the venison (one of my weaknesses, thank goodness it's a healthy protein!).

I did learn one thing about myself through this process:  I am a terrible "picker".  You know, such as when a little chunk of taco meat falls off the spoon - you just reach down, pick the little bugger up off the counter and pop it in your mouth, right?  I can't tell you how many times I almost took a bite of something I shouldn't have.  And it's so MINDLESS, I am so glad I was paying attention each time because it was just almost done, without thinking.  There was a bite of bacon left on my daughter's plate - normally I would snag it and pop it in my mouth!  Well, I did snag it, but caught myself and instead popped it in the dog's mouth.  But this is something I need to remain cognitive of going forward!

So tomorrow is the big day.  I'm nervous (finally), for many reasons: what if I get sick with nausea and vomiting?  What if I rupture something?  The "what ifs" are starting to pile up, and the fact that I just finished 2 Robin Cook novels (both relating to in-hospital deaths) doesn't help!  lol  I'm also worried about my family, primarily because we're expecting another snow storm and the hospital is nearly an hour away in good weather.  I know, I know, I am a worry wart and things will be fine.  Right?  The one thing I am NOT nervous about is whether or not I should be doing this.  I don't know if I mentioned this, but on day 2 of the liquid diet I received a phone call, and it's official: I am now considered a diabetic.  The timing couldn't be better to have this procedure done!

So there's my saga for this morning.  If you're still reading, then thanks - and my apologies, you must be having a slow morning!  LOL  I hope you all have a marvelous Monday, and remember to send a few words to God to see Patrece safely and soundly through her procedure today, as well as anyone else having surgery!

Darlene - You did GREAT on the liquid diet - good for you!  And the payoff will be a better chance for surgery.   You will be doing great. 

I know what you mean by the mindless eating.  It's too many extra calories and I'm paying more attention.   Bacon, oh my, that WOULD be a big temptation.  Good luck with the next couple of days.  You are almost there now!

Darlene, I am so proud of you, what an accomplishment.  My dogs too get the benefits of my not nibbling away.  They follow me around with the look of anticipation on their faces.  Velcro themselves to me if I am sitting.  Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for this week.  You made the effort, time to reap the rewards.

Looking forward to your post that lets us know that you are a loser too.

darlene, you have really done well. i bet you are so proud of yourself.  i know i was.  i think i cheated one time on my presurgery diet, but i did it on purpose.  oh well!  good luck on your surgery tomorrow. i know you will come through with flying colors. vick