Change in attitude!

Ever since I went to the nutritionist it seems like I have been out to sabatage myself. She told me no more diet coke, nothing fried or breaded, no caffeine, no carbonation, no sweets, no..., no...,
no...! I'm still 1 1/2 to 2 mths. from surgery and have wanted to get as healthy as possible beforehand but have had difficulty sticking to my plans, binging when I'm stressed and feeling disgusted with myself and physically sick. Then I had a dream just before waking this morning. My date to see my surgeon for my BIG date is next Tuesday and I guess it was on my mind. I dreamed that I went to the appt., he examined me for a few minutes, muttered something and stormed out of the room! The nurse who was there seemed nervous, told me he was really upset with me and she said " your stomach is in terrible shape, you haven't been doing the things you were supposed to do, and now he's not going to do your surgery!" I woke up SOOOO upset!!!
Now guess what- I have stayed on track all day, and done it happily rather than feeling sorry for myself . I've eaten very low carb all day (what my surgeon prefers for pre-op diet) in reasonable amounts and I feel better than I have in some time. Guess this dream was a real wake up call!! Time to s---t or get off the pot I guess! I'm doing this for ME, and this is not a huge thing to have to do, it has just seemed SO hard. But it's time to put my big girl pants on and JUST DO IT.
The surgery WILL work, I WILL lose weight, I WILL keep it off, and I WILL stick to my doctor's instructions from here on out. Whenever I may be tempted otherwise, I will think of how upset I was in my dream! Thank You God for sending this "warning".  It's exactly what I needed/

Rhonda

WOWWWWWW... I think it is awesome that you were able to recognize what your dream was trying to warn you of. It is said by many that our dreams are a mothod for our subconscious mond to communicate important things to us. It is not always so easy to decipher, but I really believe that dreams could be messages we are recieving to enable us or warn us.  Ok so now every one will think I am crazy now huh? But thats okay.. I knew this years ago...LOL.

I also think it is awesome that the dream inspired you to do what is necessary to achieve your goals. YOU GO GIRL! Just remember too, that alot of those things we are being told "no no no" to, helped get us where we are when we start seeking out the help of this surgery. It would do no good to have this surgery, neglect following the rules, because the weight loss seems magical. BECAUSE in a year and a half or 2 it will all start coming back just as magically as it went away right after surgery if we don't make permanent healthy lifestyle changes. Will you be perfect? Probably not.. But we should do our best always to do all the right things. And why resent that, when it is part of the tool box for our long term success, that we so desperately want and need.

Good for you and your excellent attitude adjustment..lol. You will face challengs, feel free to come here and lean on us. Don't think we don't all experience our challenges and hard times with this.. we are here to help one another through all aspects of this journey!
Big Hugs!

Good job and way to get on track!  Keep in mind that you are the focus, you are important and are old ways got us to this point. 

You know it is very funny how the mind works isn't it?   We are told not to do something and we think about that over and over until we either do it or get over it.  I have been told the same thing by the dietitian.  She stated we will work on the things now so you will be all set for the surgery.  She said no caffeine, so I stopped drinking caffeinated coffee, she said no carbonation, so I stopped drinking soda. Not a big deal but then she said smaller portions.  Now you would think if you wanted to loose weight that would be easy.  NOT for me, it is hard. I don't know why but it is.  The exercise is also a stumbling point.  And now that it is cold and there are 10 inches of snow on the ground it is even a bigger excuse.  BUT I really need to do this.  This is for me and no one else and it is me who has to do it.  Now that I put it in words I have to do it.  Congrats on your dream I will be right with you. 
Laurie

Hi Everybody,

Today seems to have gone pretty well too, thanks to that dream. Please don't misunderstand- I totally KNEW and understood what I was supposed to do and WHY I was supposed to go ahead and  start becoming healthier and shrinking my liver. It was just that when she told me "starting today, no more........" it was like a switch turned on and some rebellious little child in me pouted and stomped her foot, and said "you're not the boss of me!" Isn't that crazy?Definitely a case of cutting off my nose to spite my face. Nothing against her, she's great, but you know how well meaning people have given us advice at times-"why don't you try Weigh****chers" or some other fill in the blank with your choice. I have tried all those and many others and they did not work for me, at least as far as being able to keep weight off. It just seems so crazy in a way that one of our requirements for having surgery is losing weight and sticking to a program of eating. If we could do that, why would we need help?  I know, I know, this is for a short time, it 's to help me get through surgery with less complications, heal faster, etc. And I want all that and my plan from the start had been to do all I could to get healthier. Just some part of me did not want one more person to tell me what to do! And when I'm stressed, food is my drug of choice. So feeling extremely stressed and knowing I'm not supposed to overeat or eat the wrong foods, I felt even more stressed and wanted to eat even more. I'm sure some of you are familiar with that ugly merry go round. Right now, I am off of it and praying to stay off. I know what I have to do after surgery and i know that this tool will help me learn to get back in control of my eating so that I can control food rather than food controlling me. I know I will always be a recovering foodaholic and have to monitor my eating and my emotions. My tool will help me to be successful at that but the attitude I have will be a big factor in my long time success. Like I said last night- I CAN do this and I WILL do this. Thanks for listening to my wandering mind and thanks for always being supportive!!

Rhonda

Wow, great conclusion to your dream.  Keep up the positive attitude.  Small slip ups, get back on that cart and start afresh.  No butt kicking.  You will succeed.  Starting making the needed changes before surgery will lead to easier adjustments after surgery.  Come back any ol time and vent.  we are here for your support.  Hugs, Kathy