Why I haven't been around

I thought I'd share with some of you why I haven't been around lately. I've struggled with depression all my life and have been on medication since I was 19. These past two months it seems to have gotten worse and what is not helping is the fact that I still am not losing any more weight. Then I get upset and eat slider foods...cookies, cake...junk basically b/c it goes down easy and I figure if I'm not losing any more weight what does it matter? Along with the depression comes a never ending fatigue that makes it difficult for me to even get out of bed in the morning. Every muscle and bone in my body aches and if I do try to exercise my legs litterally give out on me and I can't catch my breath. I haven't lost an ounce in the past month. It's very frustrating and to be honest I'm about ready to just give up all together.

I'm sorry to bring anyone down, but I wanted to share.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Sukie

Sukie (((((hugs))))))), Sorry to hear about the depression.  Some of that going around the boards.  Do you recognize that any part of the year is worse?  See any trends in your energy?  Have you shared this with your surgeon, pcp, mental health counselor?  Please do.  Maybe an adjustment or change in medication, ongoing one on one sessions will help.

I am always here to listen.  I have been depressed as well, currently on an effective med for me.  Worked hard on the issues I needed to clear up.  Yes, dealing with depression is hard work.  I have faith in you.  Please do all that you can to get additional help.  Your life is important.

I am not going to suggest the best things for you, but please share with someone local that can help.  I am always available to be a sounding board.  Vent away.  Hugs, and more hugs from friend to friend.  Hugs, Kathy

sukie, so sorry you are struggling so.  i understand about the depression. i have been on medication for the last 13 years and have attended weekly sessions with my shrink for about the same number of years.  he is the one who prescribes my meds, so he sees what i am going through. i can't stress enough how much one on one therapy has done for me.  the meds weren't enough for me, i had to do it along with therapy.  i still have depression but at least i haven't been institutionalized since 2003. if i can ever help you sukie i will. i will pm you my phone number so you can call if you want.  i know how much it hurts. i also know that depression can cause fatigue so it can all be related.  hang in there girl, lay of the cakes. talk to your surgeon about getting another fill, maybe that will help. vick

So sorry to hear of your troubles.  I've read where depression is more common this time of year.  The slider foods you are eating can also cause fatigue.  Try your best to get back on the right foods.  That might help.  And talk to your doctor about adjusting your medication.  We are all here for you.


Hugs and blessings. 

Wanda

Ahh Sukie! When you are feeling so blue and down is when you should be here more.. letting us help you through it, at least by listening and you knowing you are not alone. We love you and don't want to have you hurting, especially alone.

Many times after wls we need to have our depression meds changed or increased. I had mine increased plus one added after wls. Definately check in with your doctor on this. The depression will definately cause you fatique and also make you want to seek out those comfort foods, which the carbs in those will contribute to the fatigue even more.

You may consider talking to your wls surgeon and asking about why you are not losing weight, or at least very litle. A new member posted earlier today that she too had little luck with the band, and is now slated to have RNY on Dec 23rd.  Now I am not saying that is what yo have to do to lose the weight, or even that it is possible for you, but something to consider with your surgeon if you are interested / able.

You may also consider a visit with the nutritionist. that may help shed light on what is happening as well. You won't help yourself by falling back into the comfort food mode tho. I am NOT criticising, as I can fully understand how you must be feeling. I just know that  by doing that you really aren't helping yourself, because it is contributing to your tiredness, and you are (I am guessing) probably getting angry with yourself over it too.

Don't ever feel like coming to us to share what you are going through is bringing us down... this is a support group Sukie! Thats what we are all about. Helping each other through the hard times, and celebrating the good ones. Vent away! I am so so sorry for the pain you are going through. PM me anytime you need to.
Hugs!
Patrece

Thanks guys, I know in my head what I should do...but lately I just don't care.  I'm regrettting ever had this surgery. It's not going to work and I really should have just left well enough alone...I think I'm one of those ppl that was just meant to be fat all my life.

I am going to try to in and see my dr next week. I do have a fill this week but how much good will it do when what I'm eating are just slider foods.

Thanks for your support.
Sukie

I want to send a cupids arrow of

self love and acceptance

straight your way Sukie.  You are

so worth the effort. 

Wish I could load you up with
 
the enthusiasm I feel for you.

Know that I am in your  corner and

root, root, rooting for you. 

You are among friends here at
 
bariatric buddies. 

Love ya, Kathy

 Ohhh Sukie, honey. I am so very sorry you are struggling so badly with this. Please don't give up on this. You are so worth the effort. No one is meant to be fat. not you, not any of us. You are going through a very difficult time, and I wish I could just be right there with you to help you through this.
I do understand your frustrations. I know none of this is easy. Know how much I care and want to help you through this. I am going to PM you with my phone number. If you want to call me and just vent, or lean or talk or whatever, I am here.
Big hugs to you!

Suki, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I struggle with depression as well and this year in particular has been very hard for me. everyone is right, you need to speak with your doctor and relate these feelings. There is help out there, you just have to grab it. I wish I had this majical inspiring quote to make it all better but I don't. If nothing else, know that you are not alone and that we are all here for you. No matter what reach out to us. That is what this whole site is founded upon.