Whats for food and fun?

Thank you Vick. I'm gonna get through it, but it is hard. Crazy part is, he knew why I was looking into the get away. Some days I just dunno. He has his mind made up counseling won't help him. he says they can't understand the depth of his loss...which is true, unless it happens to you, you can only imagine, but they may be able to help him get through the grief process.I told him yesterday, if it kept up too awful much longer he was gonna chase me away. Its been this way for 2 years now. It really drains me and depresses me as well.
Thanks for the love and support. I'm an ornery one, I'll get through it, just wish he could.

Is Paul taking an antidepressant?  At least for his wife's sake? 

I was horribly depressed years ago, woe is me, world is out to get me, no one understands, the list goes on, seeing no light at the end of the tunnel.  To make a long story short, I was hospitalized, monitored while I started the antidepressant and started talk therapy.  I can recall the feeling, it was a tough hole to work my way out of.  And I do mean work.  Now, life is better, still have moments here and there, expecially if I forgot to take my effexor.  It took a while for me to accept that depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, and it is ok to fix the imbalance.

Encourage Paul that there is better out there, he does have to do the work, life is worth it.  The short stint in inpatient mental health saved me.  Please feel free to share this with Paul.  Hugs for you.  Two years is a long time, but with treatment, there is hope.