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Feeling better today.  Small victory of not giving in to emotional hunger yesterday. It is amazing how powerful the feelings are like the body goes into flight or fight mode as if is an emergency is immenent.  Lots of safe talk to calm down and set limits.

B-protein shake

L-chicken and spinach

D-cod and broccoli

S-maybe hard boiled egg

Hi there. I do not have any experience with what you are going through.  I do however support you and send you a big hug.  Get the medical and mental aid you need and just put one foot in front of the other.  Take good care of yourself and keep sharing! 

I'm glad that you felt safe with us to share your post.  I can't imagine anyone would think you are lazy.  My heart and support are with you.

Until you can see the psych doctor, I agree with drea29.  Maintain the best you can and take care of how you're feeling.  When you're on the right meds, then you'll be able to focus on the other things.  

You've shown lots of courage dealing with the trials you have.  

While I do not share your personal struggle, I can certainly empathize with your situation.  I work in mental health and with client's who suffer with mental illness.  Your concerns about medication are very real. Some of them to produce weight gain.  I am not sure if you are having insurance issues or if there are limited resources  where you are, but as you mentioned meeting with a psychiatrist to discuss your concerns would be the best.  I know your doc is doing the blood work as some of the medications due raise insulin levels which lead to diabetes.  So I am glad that you are having that done.  You know what to do as you have been successful in losing weight before. It sounds like when your illness is not well managed it over rides your ability to focus and concentrate on your weight loss.  I understand the illness, also having family members that are bi-polar.  Do you have any support for your mental illness.  There are organizations such as NAMI that run free groups. The state clinics also accept pts at now charge if this is the issue.  Are there any case management services you could utilize?  You need a tremendous amount of support and I would try and seek it out wherever you can find it.  Do the best you can each day.  Maximize the days you are feeling well to do the first best you can on your food plan.  At this point maintaining where you are without gaining my be a realistic goal.  Wishing you the best in your ongoing recovery.

Not so cold today and the sun is shining...always makes me feel better.

My plan for today:

B: coffee with half and half

L: Leftover grilled chicken in a salad with Panera poppyseed dressing

D: Turkey burger, no roll, green beans

S: Apple with almond butter

Treadmill and pilates

Have a good day